Gratitude is a most wonderful feeling: I need to share this news with a supportive community and I dont in any way want it to seem showy or ridiculous. In fact I dont want any of these posts to be taken any way but as my pure emotion pouring onto the page. I dont really understand or know how to cope with what has happened in the last 6 months so I took to spewing my thoughts, hopes, fears and emotions onto paper and for some reason you all read and journeyed right along with me and I have to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. Even if just on the screen the followers and contributors to this page have been there for me for some of the most uplifting and most soul crushing moments of my entire life. With you, Ive been able to share and go through something that was so unimaginable I couldnt even speak it at the beginning of this journey. Yet here I am, living, breathing and managing a life without my most dearest friend and mother and I would like to think I am coping well with an amazing support system. From the bottom of my heart I thank each and every follower because without this outlet and without the encouragement I received to continue this outlet I am not sure how well I would be handling things. ❤️❤️❤️So THANK YOU, thank you for being on the crazy journey with me to the end and beyond.❤️❤️❤️ That being said the past two days have been an incredible rollercoatser of emotions and were incredibly hard for me as my previous posts will attest to. I still miss my mom so very much and truly wish she could have been here to take part in the special day we had yesterday. My family was there to uplift me yesterday and they didnt even understand how much they had done for me. Spending time with my father and Elliot at first alone and chatting about life and playing with my nephew really lifted my spirits. My father and I had some good conversation and my heart felt lighter hearing how he was doing. Ya know, there is just something about lil Elliot that brings joy and laughter to any room, maybe because he is the first grandson, or maybe because hes just a special soul. But either way I love being around him and cannot wait to see him again! I will post pictures of this later. I was also able to see an amazing view of Mt Baker yesterday from my mothers room, as some of you know this was her absolute favourite view and I just hope that she was able to peer through a window on the other side and be a part of our day and see her amazing view❤️ But most heartwarming, uplifting, truly generous and incredibly shocking of all the things that happened yesterday was this: A gift. A gift from my loving mother and loving father on her birthday, the first birthday we would spend without her. A gift she had been saving for us along with my father since before she was sick again, almost 4 years ago. A gift that they had wanted to give to us (my brother and I) on the day I graduated from college but she would pass two days after that. It wasnt the right time and so dad saved this gift to give to us on this day. I cannot express what this gift means to me or my brother especially knowing my parents had decided this and talked about this long before she was even sick and had been planning a surprise together. I truly felt her presence there yesterday and as we all sobbed and hugged I was absolutely speechless. And for those who know me know that is a rarity! I was overwhelmed with the love and kindness and generosity of such a huge gift that would take an immense burden off me and my brother Ryan. My parents both awarded my brother and I a gift to put towards a student loan for myself, and a housing loan for my brother. This was unexpected and completely shocking to say the least. But my father wrote a lovely note and included in it the fact that my mother and him had always wanted to give us a living inheritance and they were just waiting for the right time. This relieved a burden you could visibly see off my brother and my shoulders and I will be eternally grateful for the gift from my parents and thank you just isnt enough. Thank you to my mother for having such a kind and gentle soul. Thank you for my father for his kindness, generosity and picking a perfect time to bestow a gift when I needed comfort most. And thank you to you all for following, and reading and being a part of this journey. Love, hugs, and laughter ... Amy
Posted on: Fri, 21 Nov 2014 00:39:59 +0000
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