Hello Everyone. I havent posted anything in awhile. Its fun to be around town, and meet so many people that have been praying for us through Kylies journey. Please continue to approach us and introduce yourselves! THANK YOU FOR PRAYING! We have been enjoying our summer. I call it our Redemptive Summer because last summer was just so hard for us. Last summer, we couldnt be in the sun (high risk of sunburn with 1 of the chemo meds), we couldnt swim in lakes (port infection risk), we couldnt go far from home in case of any medical need...this summer were doing everything we couldnt last summer! Last week, Kylie had a virus pass through her system which turned into an ear infection. She had her first tummy ache since finishing chemo during this time, and I cant even tell you the gut wrenching feeling I had over a simple tummy ache. Some of you remember that it was a tummy ache last May 2013 that lead to the diagnosis of Wilms Tumor (kidney cancer). Furthermore last week, we were on family vacation in Branson, MO and my older daughter Katelyn (age 8) had a very scary allergic reaction to accidental nut ingestion--it lead to an epi pen injection, ambulance ride, ER stay, and overnight hospital stay (yes while on vacation). To be honest, Kylie having had the virus and Katelyn having had the allergic reaction was hard for me. It felt like the devil/the enemy was trying to put me back into an crazy emotional state of depression and anxiety--which I had experienced way too much of when Kylie went through chemo the 2nd time. The same feelings of guilt (what did I do wrong?), inadequacy (this is too much for me), and fear were trying to take hold again. I finally came to make a bit of sense of these emotions today by realizing that as a mom, I am doing the very best I can for my kids...but at the end of the day, I cant control everything that happens in my kids lives (as much as I want to). This is completely when faith comes in to play. I submit my kids and their lives to God the Father. HE is in full control. I cant carry the burden on my own...it is too much. So today, as I cast all my care on to the Lord (1 Peter 5:7) and re-focus on Jesus, I feel so much lighter already! In a couple short weeks, summer is over already and school starts again! Heres to all of us maximizing the time and enjoying each minute left of the summer. :)
Posted on: Mon, 18 Aug 2014 02:34:10 +0000
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