Hello all.. I am very sad today, because I lost my best friend. Due to my PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and how it affects all of my relationshipss with everyone, from friends to family and yes, even lover of 27 years! This is breaking my heart to say this, but, I need to. Most of you all know that I have many, many illnesses. Including liver cancer, for which I am currently being treated for. I am doing very well with my progress with this. I am on day of 84 for the treatment time. It all mostly started when I was a little boy, around 6 years old. I was raped and molested by my families Landlord, our next door neighbor. That was my very first Trauma. I have had many since. However, it was my heart attack in 2011, my 1st out of 2. That had left me with brain damage from lack of oxygen and was the Trauma that my Doctors say, was the Big one and that it sent me into Maximum Overdrive with my PTSD. It has been pure HELL! It is and has destroyed almost everything in my life! It is BY FAR, THE MOST HORRIBLE thing I have ever had to deal with! Moreso than any disease I have or any experience I have endured before. Please, I beg you all to learn about people with PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. You will see just how horrible it can be. I also ask that you all please be patient with me when we speak and not take me too seriously if I am a bit short. I am getting better a bit. I did however have a horrible set back at my Psychiatrists office the other day. I almost got into a fist fight with another patient because he had closed the elevator on me. When I got to my Doctors office, I said,I would like to thank the person who closed the elevator on my hand and almost breaking not only my hand but my watch too?. This very tall man said, I did and what are you going to do about it? Well, I went CRAZY on him! I was about to crown him across the head with my water bottle when my friend and my doctor broke us up. That was how bad this can get. It will pop all of a sudden and I go into a storming rage and want to break things and hurt myself. Trust me, this is not easy for me to be this open with you, but, I want more and more people to Know how Bad this illness is. Please, find it in your heart to read about it and that way, if you are ever confronted by one,or see someone else who is.. you will know what to look for and maybe HELP! and or speak out for funding for research for a cure. So, there you all have it now, My Big secret about myself that I did not want you all to know. I felt compelled to tell you today and I hope that it was the right thing to do. I not only need you all for support for my liver cancer, but my PTSD as well. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for being there for me when I have needed you in the past. I hope you will stand by me through this too Big Hugs n Tugs, Daddy Ernie XXX I have included a link for you. There is also very good information available at Wikipedia too. webmd/anxiety-panic/guide/post-traumatic-stress-disorder
Posted on: Fri, 12 Sep 2014 00:43:53 +0000
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