Here is an amazing piece confirming the power of recognizing the truth of nonduality and the confirmation of this in the Near Death Experience. #5096 - Saturday, November 9, 2013 - Editor: Jerry Katz The Nonduality Highlights groups.yahoo/group/NDhighlights/ ---------------------------------------------------------- A reader of the Highlights writes... Six months and two weeks ago I began a journey that has been very very hard; often nightmarish, horrific, and challenging to everything. On a Monday evening, in the middle of meditation, I instantly projectile vommited and developed a prolific shortness of breath. After unrelenting vomiting and air hunger, went to emergency room. I sat for seven and a half hours before being seen. Tests were run and I was diagnosed with right lower lobe pneumonia and a collapsed lower lung as well as pleural effusion (a build up of fluid in the sac that holds the lung. I laid helpless on a gurney for two days until they found me a room. I was then hospitalized for 6 weeks. A number of mishaps occurred, one after the other, that the team of physicians treating me referred to as the perfect storm. Sixteen days into my hospitalization I was still running fevers of 103-105F, so they decided to do a thoracentesis where unsedated they have you lean over a bedside table and use a 16 inch needle to go in to drain the fluid in the pleural sac. They figured it must be this fluid that was keeping my temperature so high, despite four different I.V. antibiotics every six hours. It turned out that I had Mersa as well as two other antbiotic resistant bacteria and a anti-fungal resistant form of yeast. They changed all my meds up and my fevers still would not go down. So they did a CT scan and discovered that the radiologist who did the thoracentesis had pierced both the diaphragm and the liver while removing the needle. Now I had rather large abscesses on both the diaphragm and the liver and had developed a liver fistula as a result of this clinical error. I was on 4 different kinds of I.V. narcotics for pain that was quite literally mind-shattering for me. The errors did not end. The fever persisted. So I had a five and a half hour surgery where they took five liters of pus out of my abdomen and found that my gallbladder was gangrenous and exploded in the surgeons hands when he removed it. I have two tubes (Jackson Pratts) hanging out of my abdomen that I have to empty approximately 4 times per hour. I am admitted weekly for CT scans, flouroscopy and tube adjustments. Monday I will have my 16th surgery in six and a half months. I realize that I did not need to write to you, nor tell you all of this. I only say this: I would kiss your feet if I could because every day of my life is filled with so much pain and exhaustion and I have been through so very much and there seems to be no clear end to all of this in sight. BTW, I also died for four minutes and forty seconds in the ICU during all this adventure. [editors note: this story is told below]. Were it not for the teaching of non-duality I am certain I would have killed myself by now. I owe over half a million in hospital bills now and am terrified to be at the mercy of the American healthcare system. My deepest love, respect and gratitude to you and your beautiful team of editors. Infinite Love, [the reader has been kept anonymous] (¸.·´(¸.•´ .•*¨`*•´ • °¸.•* ¨` * ¸.•*¨`*•¸¸.·¨ ~ . ¨¯`¨¯` I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love. - Mother Teresa ~ ~ ~ [In this next email, the writer continues...] If you feel that my story could be helpful, feel free to use it as you wish. It has been the great power of lucid awareness that keeps revealing again and again, that the lamp of Consciousness can consume everything when I let go and allow it to consume the me-thought, I would like to share a bit about my near death experience. The few that I have shared it with have either gotten angry at me or tried to reinterpret it for me...which is really about giving it a contextual framework that eases their comfort level. I am rather fine with it all. Briefly, I did not see light. I did not experience love. This was, initially, a profound shock to me because I have trusted for decades that the ONE was Light Whose singular quality was Love. I entered an unspeakable Vastness that was not light, nor was it darkness. It was not a something and there was nothing present in this nothingness that was empty of anything at all except boundary-less pristine awareness. Naked infinite awareness inseparable from the absolute living nothingness being experienced. No thought. No I. Just this no-thing-ness. After a time, I was aware of something communicating with me without words yet I perfectly understood. Stay or go back. But if you stay any longer, you will not be able to go back. It was a difficult decision for me because I knew the road to recovery would not be an easy one. When I knew I wanted to return, light...scintillating appeared with a love I cannot begin to describe. I remember how painful it was to actually enter the body again; the body seemed ridiculously small for the infinitude I recognized as the only I there is. And so the morsels sublimely via NDHighlights and Daily Dharma have been an ever flowing lifeline; an unceasing and uncompromising light in a bodily journey that seems bereft of any certain closure. Infinite Love [anonymous] --------------------------------------------------------- Who Am I? When we ask ‘who am I?’ We discover by and by, Absolutely nothing there, Radiant, pristine, ever aware. That by which our minds can know Thoughts and sensations as they to and fro. In which objects perceived are seen Without which we wouldn’t know they’ve been … Once we actually realize who … To awaken there’s nothing to do, For that which we truly are Is right here, never afar. Give up the search, still your mind There’s nothing left to find. Awareness cannot be lost Just overlooked to our great cost. There’s nothing to want or get. That which we desire is met, When we look deep within Neath body, mind and all its din. If awakening is what you truly seek Under the ephemeral veil you must peek. Once the discovery has taken place, You can see your ‘original face’. Then you can totally let go, Relax and enjoy the show. Tranquil, content and ever at peace, Let all ‘becoming’ finally cease! This poem is from my first collection entitled Poetry From Beyond The Separate Self. If you are interested in more articles, poems, or my paperback books, including in the new books: Awareness of Awareness -- The Open Way and Poetry From Awareness of Awareness -- The Open Way these may be found at lulu/spotlight/ColinDrake . Lulu are currently offering 20% off until midnight (US Eastern Time) on the 15th, just enter CORNUCOPIA at the coupon code. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- For more articles from NDHighlights or to subscribe visit groups.yahoo/group/NDhighlights/
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