Hero-ine by Sergio Valentin Beautifully chaotic, illuministicly misguided, all along ive been naively unaware of this purposely pain driven destiny that fate decided to burden upon me. A predetermined acceptance of an understanding that should be unacceptable because it feels more like designs doing not free will. A helpless hopefulness leads to confusion & conflict as my soul wrestles with its purpose & self preservation. A double edged sword of selfless & selfish acts that either reinforce or misrepresent my character! Genuine intent, miscommunicated as self righteousness; 1st impressions are erased, & replaced with judgements! Confidence transforms into insecurity & what was once beautiful transforms into what is ugly! Exhausted mentally, damaged emotionally, I have seemingly been unable to halt this carousel of redundant self destructive behavior. Ungratefully grateful because it seems like my happiness is always momentary but a moment is all that was ever really promised. Inevitability leads to my submission because ive realized control is an illusion created by the self conscious to comfort ur fears. Tortured my by my failures, I find myself franticly searching for opportunities for heroism like a junky searches for a fix! Indifferent because somewhere along the lines I became the villain & all I ever wanted was to be the hero & save the day!
Posted on: Sun, 17 Aug 2014 01:21:19 +0000
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