Hey Mum, Its about that time of year where I write you a little letter to be all like hey whats cracking up there and I hope youve been Facebook stalking wherever you are. I read this article just now...and as I sit here and think about what you have missed the last 11 years heres what just happened. I finally had a smack in the face and worked out something BIG. Something huge. Since you left I have felt like I needed to fill a greatness...probably because you left such a big hole. I wanted to be so hugely successful due to my fear of death and feeling like I needed to prove that I had a reason to be here on this earth...how come you left? It must of meant I had a reason to stay? Must mean I had to change the world. Ive just realised I dont need to do this. I can finally let go. I have no fecking idea why its taken me this long and to read just this one article..but I have finally let it go..with a few big sobs and a couple of weeks of being a bit Jekyll and Hyde. I dont have to be anything but me. Just see where being me takes me. Time to stop feeling like there should be something more..as I am everything. In a funny way this time of year when I miss you the most on your anniversary always brings epiphanies. Miss your face. Man do I finally feel free. Time to just live life and be ME. x
Posted on: Tue, 26 Aug 2014 11:51:22 +0000