Hey guys! A friend of mine just wrote a lillte text and I wanted to show it to you. It might seem depressing but read it to the end. here it is: I dont know the name of this feeling. Despair? It seems a bit too harsh. Sadness? It seems a bit too nice. This feeling is somthing like despair, sadness and some shock mixed up. Youre standing here, like there was something who would like to come out. A cry, a word, a groan. You just stand there, tears fliing up your eyes but never falling. Feeling like somthing is stuck on your throat, like a lock. A lock on all of this feelings. A lock that wont let you relieved yourslef by grying of screaming. No it would be too nice. It keep all of this pain locked inside of you. You cant let it out, it wont let you. So you just stand there, feeling like an invisible blade is tearing your heart appart, feeling like a a lock of cruelty is on your throat and feeling your tears fliing up and down your eye but never roll on your cheeks. Outside you look normal, a bit weird and sad but its nothing like the inside. On the inside its a complete panic, a constant running away from your own feelings, your own pain that you dont want to feel anymore. And the hours pass, and you just stay here, unable to move or to get yourself to do something to get this pain out of your mind. It wont let you do that. It locks you and you chair, bed or whatever so you wont be able to find any help. Youre just by yourslef. Its only you and your pain. No running away this time. You hold youre phone, your only chance to get some help. But what you get is arguing. Because when you feel that feeling you cant think right, you always mess up things and make mistakes. So the people from those you tried to get some help just makes you feel even worse. Its a never ending nightmare, even sleeping is a relief. Peace and calm. But it never last long. Soon the sun rise and you have to face the reality again. Welcome to earth my dear. You have to fight this feeling. You cant let it win. How? Talk. Do do like me, sitting there just talking to herself. Go to some people and talk about your problems. Youre not complaining, youre searching for help, dont feel guilty its not youre fault. So stand up and go talk to someone. Someone who can understand you and help you. Go now. Im counting on you. So thats it. I wanted to tell you guys that if you feel that you need to talk to someone whos not really close to you but can listen and understand you, Im here. Yeah Im just an anonymous person but that might help somepeople to talk about what theyre feeling so...dont hesitate to send a message to the page. Ill answer you, I promise. ~The Doctor~
Posted on: Fri, 04 Jul 2014 22:28:07 +0000