Hi UCnians:) Good day to all your avid readers! Tnx diay for giving a space in ur wall sa pagpost ani aqng confession slash suwat2x. Nainspire lang pd q mpost kunuhay. Actually avid reader pd q ani nga page..not literally na cge jd qg fb , pro bsan SUPER busy q sa akong studies krun, mo find time jd q even once a week pg.open sa aq fb account ky lage mbasa q sa mga post ninyo. .mao rjud ni aq way pa-relieve sa aqng stressful student life, stressful to the point na tnang vacant time nq i-allot jd na pagtuon, ky naming lge jd q. ;D Anyways, moshare lang pd q sa aqng gamay nga kaagi, basin naa pud moy malearn na something out of my experience. And it went this way… 15 months ago, nibakasyon aq uncle na tga Luzon sa amua ani sa Bohol, unya nagda cya ug kauban, bali nephew 2 cya sa asawa ni uncle. Pg abot nla sa amu house, that very moment I saw this man from outside our main door while naa q sa sala, I don’t know pro murag nihunong kariu ug tuyok ang earth. Hihi. Na 1st sight attracted jud q nya. (dli lang pd love at 1st sight ang ato iterm ha ky murag love agad2x?) unya mao 2 ad2 cya matog sa aq kwarto, cyempre did2 gd q sa kwarto nla mama matog, hospitable bya tah mga bol anon, laina sad ug tapad meh..hihi. dli meh kau magtagad sa bay ky mauwaw kuntahay pud q nia.. pawas hilas baje. pro every night manan aw jd meng duha ug pbb teens, c myrtle jud iya idol. kami rang duha sa sala manan aw ky natog nman cla uban. Awkward lang jd nga magkasturyahanay ra meh f naa cya iask about sa amu gtan aw. Lame gud pd sa feeling na kami rang duha..hehe. Day by day nisamot aq pag admire nya ky kamo kuno puy nag uban sa usa ka bay, everyday jud magkitaay, May man 2 so bakasyon pa..mao nadevelop jud q nya, tapad pjud meh lingkuran ug kaon, bale isig corner meh sa table. Maconscious gud q the way q mkaon ky basin maturn off cya naq. By the way, UC naa d i q bf ad2 na time, pro cyempre dli man nmu tuyuon na ma fall sa lain dba? Aw, crush diay. But I love my bf at that time. Aq gani cya giingnan na nkacrush q ad2 na guy ky lagi mura daw cyag nkasense na nay something namo, although wa gud, nq ra ang something. Mao to na insecure na nuon c bf ni crush ky lage uban meg house. First and last time jud q nkasuway ug disco2x ky namotivate q naa c crush mdisco pud,hihi pro ang ending, tua cya mdisco uban sa aq bro sa sawang unya aq sa amo lang baryo. Hahai, murag nhugno q kariu ato ky nag expect bya q na naa cya uban mdisco nya diay wa meh magkauban. Huhuhu. June na, tingklase nasad, medyo na issue na to namo ni bf ang about ni crush, so aq tawn nig uli nq sa amua mo avoid q ni crush. -_- Kanang giingon btaw ug “nagmove on ka nya bsan dli kamo”. Medjo nahurt jud q, but I should not let my emotion toward my crush to further, ky lage nkahuna2x q ni bf, then love pd nq c bf. . Until the day nga crush must have to go home na ky naa nman gd pd cya stable job sa ila. July to. Hahai. Im so sad na dli na q kakita pa ni crush ug ad2 njud tman among story. ;( Paghigda na nq blik sa aq kwarto na gihigdaan ni crush, wa jud nq pulihi ang iya habol. Hihihi. Mao aq gigamit. Meming!!! Humuta jud sa iyang scent ui . ahaha. Bsag kamo pud mao pud inyo mabuhat tngali. Haha. Weeks after nkahibaw q na nagtxt2x cla ni bro so ag aq gkuha ang no. ni crush ug gtxtkan. Cyempre ngduha2x jd q ato ky mhadlok qg mreject lang diay q nya. Pro baw unsay nkahatag nq ug courage nga aqng npindot and send sa aq cp, with matching piyong sa mata ug ginhawa ug lawm. Taod2x ana, naa may txt message niabot .. ug Umayygad!!! C crush!!!, globe cya ha pro nreply. Nadungog nq ang knakusugang buto2x sa aqng dughan.“=cno po cla?” Doubtedly, pro ntug an q na c kuan q. nreply man nah cya ug “=buti naalala mo pa q?” ..to make the txt conversation short, ingon cya nq na mangau daw unta cya sa aq no. ni bro before he left pro naghesitate cya, au daw gni na mtxt q una..naa na meh commu. Ask cya f naa na q bf, ngon q uo. . sayang daw. Hehe. Gkilig pd q gamay. Since ad2 cge na meh txt ni crush, bsan smart q, mnawag pjud na cya nq..But sa first time na nicall jud cya ky sa no. ni mama ky preho man cla globe. Di ka mlain nga ngs2rya cla ni mama unya gsto daw cya mkgs2rya nq..nananghid jd ni mama mao 2 nagkastorya meh. Ingon cya huwaton daw q nya ky first time jd kta pud nya nq, nkaingon daw cya sa iya self na aq ang girl na gusto nya pkaslan..BIGTIII!!! gitagalog 2 ha while he’s calling me, ky tagalog man cya, actually. kapampangan. Tinud anay ndaw iyang gbati, dli na crush2x, ky actually crush is 6 years older than me. But cya bya juy pnakahitsuraan sa tanan nqng nauyab. Hehe. Pro wa pa q npasalig nya ky lage naa qy bf na love nq, but he’s willing to wait daw. Nkabalo c bf na nagtxt2x cya nq, so c bf perting sukua samot na ky nkabasa cya ug txt gkan ni crush na nag I love u nq. Paitz.. dba mas kadudahan kung ang iyang nabasa nga I love u gkan sa aq sent item? mao 2y unang time jd na nkita nq c bf ngad2 nlang ksuko nq to the pt. na gkumot na nya aq bukton ky patug anon lage q nga uyab meh ni crush , dli rba jud. Di jud mtuo nq. Iya pjud gbundak aq cp, mao naguba. Pag uli nq ntug an q ni mama ky cge nman jd qg hilak sa gbuhat ni bf nq..mahadlok na q nya. So I decided to end up our relationship. Admitted man pd cya after na it was eventually he’s fault why he lost me. Love pman unta nq cya pro dli na mcompensate sa aqng love ang iyang gbuhat. Unsa nlang kha ug menyo na meh dba unsa pa iya mbuhat nq. While, c crush ngcge jpon panguyab nq, pursegido, tawag, txt, until I give him my sweet yes, more than a month na 2 ha after meh ngbuwag ni ex. Sobra iyang kalipay daw. And I was happy too. He is, I could say is an ideal man. Caring, sweet, hardworking. Workaholic. Secured na aq future ba. Hehe. I could not ask for more. Although long distance relationship meh wa 2 nahimong hindrance pra namo, open cya naq sa tnan2x. Our relationship went smooth, nay gamayng away pnagsa ky gahi man daw gud qg uo. Immature pman gud, I admit man pud, unya cya ky mature njud ug panlantaw sa life. Gusto cya sultian nq sa tnang mga plano ug lihok nq dri. We plan things and our future like nig human daw nq skwela, by that time, pakasalan na daw q nya. Ka twit!!! Pero. Dakong PERO. Abi q happy ending na, mao pman diay 2 sinugdanan sa dakong trial nga mitest sa among relasyon. I learned, im preg, 4 months na kapin. I told him. Of course c ex ang papa. Nahugno cya. Nauwaw njud q nya..We came to a point na paabort q, nagsabot meh. He made promises na we can get through it and he will always be there to support whatever my decision is. But eventually, my conscience did not allow me to do it. I told him thru phone call na ipadaun nq c baby. After I utter those words to him, he did not say a thing and the other line cut off. Mao na toy last namo na conversation ni present bf/ crush. Wa na cya ngparamdam nq. Cge qg txt , tawag, di jud tubagon.. magring lang ya cp. My mama said na dli na daw nq cya storbohon pa ky uwaw na sa amo part bya ug mgukod q nya to think dli iya ang baby. So I partially given him up. Partially, ky deep inside me naghope q na one day mbalik cya nq. Knasakitan jud,. Murag gkumot aqng dughan. I was a victim of a promise made broken. Pero I realize pd na dli cya dpat msuffer sa mga consequences sa aqng sayop. He is too good to deserve someone like me..disgrasyada. hayyy… and I txted him once more on the last week of December “ Myl, (amo tawagan), if di ka magrereply sa txt q before the yr 2012 ends, ibig sabihin na gusto mo na qng mwala sa buhay mo”. Naa pjud qy kabaga nuh nga mtxt nya ato. Mixed emotion, .i was still hoping deep within he’l come back and everything will be fine for us. Everytime mkadungog q anang kantang “sa isang sulyap mo” magsenti daun q. Theme song kunuhay namo to, inspired by PBB. Hehe. Pro ni 2013 nlang. Nanganak nlang q, wa jud cya pramdam nq. Last May 2013, ntxt q nya. The same emotion ug feeling jd nga aq nbati almost a year ago when I first txted him. The same thing happen, HE REPLIED. All our memories flashed back to my mind. A hope that had gone for a while revived in me again. Pero this time, may nausab na. nangumusta cya nq, ni baby. Naa nba daw q new bf..sakita ad2ng pangutanaa ui. Of course I hadn’t sinced he vanished. I ask him back, if naa na cya gf, he answered yes, happily yes with her new one. I jokingly said to him to tell me when they’ll be marrying. I received a positive reply na sultian daw jud q nya. Murag gidugsak2x ug kutsilyo aqng heart. Super sakit mahibaw an sa imo love na naa na cya lain. He explained and apologized why nwala cya kalit. Gusto daw cya mag move on na from that incident. mao 2 gblock diay sa karaho ang aq no. pra mkalimtan nq. Ug karun, giunblock na ky nkamove on na cya. Hayyyy… tagsa nlang pd meh niya magtxt2x. mga thrice rjud 2since he txted again. aq pay muuna ug pangumusta. Awkward jud. bc na q sa aqng studies, I know bc pud cya sa iya work. My Thoughts: Maybe we had just had a right love at a wrong time. If only I could turn back time. I Admit nsayang jud q sa among relasyon. Pro cguro dli kami ang gilaan ni God pra sa usag usa. Coz if he was my Adam, then nangamahan na unta cya sa aqng baby dba? Hihi. But im happy now being single.. single mom. Two months to count, graduate njud q. yehey!!! Prologue: (last na ni, pacensya na sa gipul an na ug basa) The very last time we txted, that was kd2ng cya njud niuna txt, moask jud nah cya f naa ba qy bf. Wa ba daw nanguyab nq. Although naa, ingon q nya na dli na q. dli njud q. and he replied, “ Eh kung aq ba papaya ka?” that was a question that I never dared to answer, but remain a question to myself until now. What is this mystery behind that question?? Or basin, nag assume nlang q run. Thanks for every one nga ntiwas ug basa up to this lines. Feel free to comment advices. Thank you UC sa opportunity to confess. God Bless and more power! By the way, tga HNU diay q sister school rpud ninyo. College of Business and Accountancy VISITOR
Posted on: Sun, 18 Aug 2013 05:55:04 +0000
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