Hope all are ready for 2014 to be over like me....just went you thought it couldnt be enough. A daughter to my dog Max that I just got two weeks ago when I tried for 3 months but family wouldnt respond but with their lawyer. She dies today at 5pm and could have been prevented since I knew they needed care. After she was joy to my new life trying to move on after all the circus its been. Talk about a HELL of a year.....hope mone have had the biggest nightmare a man should face. 1st: Mom Carissa Baker died on March 15th and I didnt get to say bye to her....watched her in a veg state for 14days to lose a best friend and mom is tough enough. We were so close... I was working out of town helping her and no family had the nerve to tell me she was in the Hostipal, till of course she collapsed and never awoke. To think she had cancer but never smoked and rarely drank and had tongue cancer. What a mom she tried to be and I always bent over backwards and she was proud of me as a man and my engineering career and many accomplishments and the fun we had as a team. We were 2 peas in a pod. 2nd: The mom Charlsie Ferguson to my Daughter walked out on April 11th and never once got back in touch with me and Ive tried many times calling her family and making things right, then to think my family helped her feel justified to be a single mom. Then tried to deny my rights friends found her blogging about online. Sadly, I never gave up my rights.... Then to think she helped me bury my mom and no remorse. That just astounds me. Not to mention she lost her mom at a young age. Think people would have respect. Seems hard to find these days. 3rd: My dad walked on me after 30+years and the lost of my mom shows a side that I never knew existed. To think I admired this man and always boasted the great man he was to about any I knew. Now refuses to talk to me but has his handout for the estate. Funny how that works. People you think you know you never really know. Guess when it only required to be liable as a father and when your not shows the character of the person. Like when no one is watching. Now Ive had to fight what was already mine 3 generations in the family and all seperate property my mom inherited 10 years ago. Seems when people dont have money or their is money at stake there is always someone with their handout. 4th: My Mom Carissa Baker estate was attacked even through was told the assets were mine as her only child/son. That family wanted nothing but then probate was filled behind my back..... How people just cant act normal is amazing. 5th: My truck was hit in the rear while I was off that day sleeping in and now the neighbors insurance doesnt want to pay to fix it. Not to mention family stole it June 25th before probate court. Yes, it was a family vehicle but Id been driving it 8 years and had insurance on it. Mom never cared cause all the house repairs id had done for the family over the years. I always bent backwards to help my family and I came 2nd. Always. Mom always knew Id drop anything and help. 6th: My mom doesnt have a headstone since no family wants to pay for it but again expects me to foot the bill. All because I wanted Doodle that many knew her by and even family called for years as I did for 12. Just like grandmother I wanted on her headstone cause she didnt get a chance to be. 7th: Jobs been tough since I had to resign in May after all the probate mess was filled behind my back that I found out in June when my Moms belongings were being thrown out to the curb. Even heirloom bed I had planned to use for my daughter my grandfather (moms dad) I never met. Luckily I am getting back on my feet but like they say....when your heart hurts your mind cant think. Definitely true. 8th: All the harassment thats been ongoing since probate is beyond words. I surely hope 2015 is lots different. Its one thing to lose a Mom esp when she was 57 and a special person in this world. Just like Xena Maxs dog she never met a stranger and was only 8.5 years old (from my best guess). Then to lose a daughter as well, that I still plan to fight for that I never denied or didnt want to be a part of. We all need a father as Ive learned. Ironic neither father cares to be apart of my life and basically I have no family anymore. I am thankful of my friends that embrace me through all these storms. Angels I call them. Just like Max had always been my angel. Now his son Hunter I have to embrace them both. I tell you Im a Christian but theses storms/trials of life Ill never understand. Hope 2015 is better. 2013 was tough from Moms cancer fight and 3 layoffs no matter the engineer I was. Then 2014 has been this way... Most Ill never understand. I just ask God for grace and blessings as I move forward after all the mess and the 3 females Ive lost in my life I cared for. I just plan to honor mom in all I do and my grandparents that loved me so much. Till then its almost to heaven and honoring mom with each stride. Here are pics of Xena (so sweet)and her brother Hunter that looks like dad Max. What a good dad he tried to be for 2 weeks. Least she got Xmas with her dad max. Here is Doodle Moms picture from when she was approx 30. Then moms grave beside grandmothers and grandad.
Posted on: Thu, 01 Jan 2015 02:26:37 +0000
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