How about this as a testimony from this summer: I am 14 years old & I came to Soul Survivor last year, but was struggling with self harm, believing all the lies people were telling me about myself, and was having many conversations with God on why my life had become so rubbish. While lots of other people were crying because of the Holy Spirit, I was crying because I was tired of trying to stay strong and failing. One time near the end of last year, I was cutting and I just wanted comfort, so thats what I prayed for. I felt God put His arm around me. This year, I came already as a lot happier person, but scared that Id go back to the person I was before, and I managed to tell myself what happened on the one night a while ago never happened. On the second to last night, the youth intern at my church was trying to get me to say out loud Jesus loves me, I am His daughter and He has a place in heaven for me... it took a long time for me to just say that Jesus loves me, I just didnt feel it was true. But on the last night, I stood up for healing. My youth leader prayed for me, I cried a lot, shook a bit, and when my youth leader let go of my shoulder, it felt like someone was still there. When I need comforting, I often rock myself, and just before worship on the last night, when we were all standing up, I rocked, but this time I felt God say you dont need to comfort yourself because Im here. This year at Soul Survivor, Ive learnt that Jesus loves me, I have amazing friends I can count on and if I ever did go back to the person I was before and slip up, Jesus will never slip up because He is stronger and bigger. In October, Ill be half a year clean from cutting.
Posted on: Thu, 04 Sep 2014 19:30:47 +0000