I Dont Play Very Well With Egos It seems I dont play very well with egos. When someone talks about all the great and wonderful things they are going to do with their life, I just end up hearing I-I-I-I and each I starts to feel a bit like a bullet or punch after awhile. Egos can be extremely aggressive when trying to reinforce their self image, especially if its deteriorating. And in all spiritual practices it will. Thats the whole point of any spiritual practice. And Im not very good at reinforcing egos so they need to try a lot harder and sometimes they do. And that is not very pleasant. An ego never is. I smile and nod my head, but my heart just isnt in it. I see the ego clearly and I know whats soon to come - suffering. Thats all the ego is ever capable of attaining. It wasnt long ago I was Iing my way through life and conversations just like that. Its all about me. So this is still pretty fresh. I remember it well. Too well. Nowadays I dont play very well with egos. More than likely I never did. Not even with my own little gremlin. The spiritual teacher Mooji just comes right out and tells people, Your personal story is the least interesting thing about you. I dont want to hear it. I dont believe a word of it. That gets all the ego BS out of the way right at the start. It opens the opportunity for real communication and not just continued ego reinforcement which is all many conversations seem to be about. Hi, heres my ego. Isnt it a nice one? Oh yes, very nice. And heres mine. Isnt it nice too? This is the sole purpose of many conversations, simply to build up the self identity. It doesnt have to be positive. The ego gets just as much reinforcement from a negative self image. So victim conversations are just as common. The ego needs a huge amount of reinforcement because it stands on such shaky ground. The ground is always crumbling beneath it because it is based on nothing more than illusion. So when someone doest reinforce the ego, that can feel very threatening. When someone points out that the ego doesnt in fact even exist that can feel even more threatening, even terrifying. In these situations, the ego must run for cover. It does this in different ways, anger, attack, sulking, projection, ignoring, denial and literally running away. It can be challenging. When you know yourself as the impersonal Self, then you know everyone else too. You cant help but love them as you are not separate from them. So when their ego starts chattering away trying to convince you they are really this incredibly shallow and limited little ego being (I dont care if its the President of the Universe. This is still an incredibly shallow and limited little being compared to what I see.), it is a bit challenging and a bit sad. So I find I dont play very well with egos nowadays. I wish people could see the true magnificence of what they really are. I wish people could leave all this suffering BS behind and free themselves from their ego prison. I do my best to help. But Im not always successful. And I wish I could help more. Maybe Im being too kind or diplomatic or just wishy-washy ego pleasing. Maybe I should do what Mooji does and cut right to the point. It would save a lot of I-I-I conversations.
Posted on: Sun, 30 Nov 2014 05:04:28 +0000
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