I am laying here, holding my 4 year old girl, I can feel her little heart beating so steady and strong, she sleeps in my arms unknowing of my heartache..oblivious to my sadness. I am trying to figure out what to tell her..what to say when she asks me mommy why cant we live in Kahnawake? I am torn because I am thinking..how can I help her build a strong self confidence when I know people see her as a half breed..as less than. I have always loved Kahnawake. My community and my Mohawk nation won my heart when I watched us stand united in 1990. I was so proud to be from here when I went to the Olympics, i remember carrying a sign into the closing ceremonies saying Nia:wen Kahnawake. I wanted so much for my people to know how much I appreciate all of them and how proud I was to be from Kahnawake. Now I lie here..literally heartbroken..heartbroken only in a way something or someone close can break my heart...and I truly dont know what to say..I am at a loss for words.. do I tell her the truth..do I tell myself the truth..that because I chose to love her dad..that I chose to create her brother and her....I am no longer wanted here...
Posted on: Sun, 17 Aug 2014 04:33:25 +0000
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