I cant help but cry this morning....Its bittersweet~ About two months ago...I had a choice to make: go to disney this year and move next....or move this year and go to disney next year. It was not an easy decision to make. And even after I made it, I second guessed myself to death. I was/am still dealing with all the legal issues from two years ago...and it was near to impossible to deal with being 600 miles away.....so...I told Joseph...we are going home! The original plan had been to move back to Bell County KY.....and then I got a message from one of my cousins.....they were planning to move to California and wanted me to come and house/dog sit while they were gone for job training. I was more happy just to see family that I had not seen in years....and I thought it would give us time to find a place to rent in Bell County. But....God must have had another plan. I wasnt here half a minute when Chris came into my life....after two years of not even thinking about dating....I am now wrapped around his heart....and as it turned out....he works 3 minutes from my cousins home and lives just in the next town over. And that all seems pretty amazing...all by itself! But what happened next has left me somewhat speechless and I have tried for nearly a week to come up with a great way to express my feelings.... All of a sudden I am assuming a lease...adopting three beautiful babies: Taz, Sophie and Greta. I have a house full of furniture and household items....Joseph has an awesome job laying out a career path for him....the tide has turned on the legal issues...in my favor..... And bear in mind...that just nearly two years ago....with a broken heart...I drove away from Bell County with only what little I could fit into my car after having brought nearly everything into the marriage. I endured a horrifically painful divorce...all while being battered to death legally from other ex family members.... I set out to restart my life...well, not really. I mean....In the beginning...I was simply protecting my daughter....nothing was too important to lose...just trying to put my family back together. I wanted to die....and often thought that once everything was over...I would simply end my life. I had given up! God has angels everywhere....one would tell me to get up and do my makeup even if I didnt feel like it...all of a sudden I was employed full time doing something I never dreamed I would be able to do....Then the time came to move forward to the next phase... Here I am....everything replaced...my heart alive with love again....my family restored.....life restored... All because someone cared enough to take a chance on me....yah...words fail me. I have had the most awesome time bonding with family....so much healing in that! My family has grown this past month or so....my heart enlarged to embrace angels of kindness.....my faith has been restored that the world is not all bad....and I want to LIVE! I am terrified.....I dont want to let them down....I want to succeed in this gift I have been handed. My heart is sad because I hate to see my family leave.....I wish I had more time with them...but I feel so incredibly blessed for this time we have had....and I hope that their adventures will bring them much happiness and joy! Meanwhile...back in TN....Im feeling incredibly humbled by all that has happened. I keep thinking back to the bible stories of how God gave back multiplied what Job had lost. What I cant quite understand is why God...or anyone else...would have such a heart of kindness toward ME?! anyways...please pray for my cousins as they travel to California....I hope to see them again.....and I hope that I dont let them down. Meanwhile.....Im going to chill out with my three new furry kids! And embrace the new life with great promise that I have been handed on a silver platter.... One tiny decision..pletely changed my life...for the better! Hello future.....here I come!
Posted on: Sun, 30 Mar 2014 14:54:59 +0000
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015