I dont betray my principles. As a matter of principle, I would have to deny Stephanie because she fell below the very standards I based off of everything about her that impressed me. Im nearing 1,000,000 words - all a concerted effort to motivate her to use her brain - and shes so enameled into this frivolous mind set that she cant do it. Its not even a point of wont do it, at this point in time. Its at, is incapable on her own. To put it into a gaming perspective, theres a point where youre dealing with an opponent thats too challenging and all you can do is heal. You can stay alive for a while, but youre caught in a healing loop, where if you stop healing up, you splat. Essentially, thats what Stephanie has done with her self-esteem and her self-perspective. And its going to completely crash very soon unless she dips even lower into those things that short-term make you feel good about yourself but long-term completely screw you over. I told Stephanie when I was dealing with my problems, Im your friend of last resort. Dont come to me with a need unless you have nobody else there for you. And I stepped up because nobody else had stepped up, and I did what an artist does: I made art. Art that I was arrested over, because I was flaying the decay in ways that only a writer is capable of doing. Now, Im not there as a friend. Im there as a nemesis. Because thats what the situation requires me to be. Its not out of contempt, or spite, or loathing. Its out of sorrow because being compassionate means you feel pain when other people feel pain. It makes me angry; yet, I dont get to make the choice. I only get to point out the choice. If the choice is to try and maim me, then so be it. I bleed poison, and none have cut me yet who have not cut themselves worse than I was injured in the process. I do not suffer, although I feel pain and sorrow. I enjoy them because I know why I feel them, and that cause is just in my eyes.
Posted on: Wed, 13 Nov 2013 01:31:43 +0000
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