I dont know what to do anymore. I have a girlfriend now and were about to reach * years... But the problem is, Im getting sick of her. No, no, no, dont react yet. I love her very much! But there is a reason why Im like this... Lets say she has given me a lot of physical/mental/emotional scars. Let me enumerate some of them: 1. Once, she almost broke up with me because I didnt buy her the shoes that she wanted. 2. Every time she does something wrong, as in REALLY WRONG, to the point that it affects everyone, she blames it on me. (Guys, you know the feeling.) 3. She lies to me. Almost all the time. I catch her lying, but she just denies it--- which then turns into a fight. 4.There were many times when I didnt want to buy her food because I was short on cash, she would just starve. EVEN THOUGH SHE HAS HER OWN POCKET OF MONEY. 5. She beats me up. I mean, she literally beats me up. and finally... 6. In the course of our relationship, about 80% of the past * years we were together, she was in love with her HS sweetheart. There are many more things, but lets keep it brief. Oh no, dont get me wrong... Those days are long over. Now, shes trying her best to change. As in REALLY trying her best. She said she now knows how important I am and that makes me happy. The problem is... Even though I want to believe her, theres just part of me that doesnt trust her. I know that in myself that I love her and I want to give her another chance... Its just that, Im spent. When we were first starting this relationship I warned her Please be good to me because if not, I will change. Not for the better, but for the worse. She has hurt me again and again, and now Im like this. We tried settling things with talking, but it just doesnt work. She just hurt me too much and I dont know if time can fix this. Shes trying her best, I know and appreciate that... But even though Im happy, most of the time I just think that its never gonna be enough. Every little thing she does wrong, I turn into a complete warlord over her, and she cant do anything about it since she knows why Im like this. I dont want to treat her that way, but my body just reacts on its own. Like a defense system readying for an ambush by enemy troops. I used to be a cool guy, caring and patient. But now, Im the exact opposite. Its because of all the hurt she gave me. I know shes trying her best, but I cant help it. Ive become the man I never wanted to be. Please, any advice would be GREATLY APPRECIATED. - CasaBlanca C*** 2***
Posted on: Thu, 21 Aug 2014 00:00:00 +0000
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