I found myself falling back in to some of my old habits and ways tonight with having a short fuse, and shutting the world out, and getting mad at people that dont deserve it. I havent meditated for almost a year and decided to do so for 5 minutes. It was hard shutting my brain off to do so, but in the midst of it my eyes snapped open, locked on a picture of my mom, dad and myself from Benihanas. I asked God what is it I need to see here while looking at that picture, then my eyes were drawn to a card my sister gave me which my Mom had given a family friend a few years before her passing. MY sister gave it to me knowing my Love and dependence on my mom. Without going in to detail about what the card and letter inside wrote, I found some answers to questions I didnt even know I had. It broke me down, but thats ok, because I dont need to have my walls up. I dont need to be afraid of anything. My mom had angels and Guardians in her life, and I can calmly admit that Ill have the same protection that she had. Many of you will overlook this posts maybe because its lengthy, or because of my previous posts, but Im not posting this for you, this post is for me. IF you did read this, then I hope you can have just a shred of these unexplainable experience that I have been blessed to have in my lifetime for they, are truly beautiful in which words the greatest writers will never be able to explain.
Posted on: Sat, 04 Oct 2014 04:02:05 +0000