I fuss I did really good today despite how I felt. My boss said every time people are asked who do you want help from. Its always my name thats said. My paperwork always comes out right and I guess people who have been there for years mess up daily. Said that is why people want to work with me.I do all the paperwork. I make sure its done right. He also said that a lot of people are worried about me.every time I do miss a day people fear the worse. They know hoe I feel about my ex April.I cant make that promise of waking up tomorrow anymore. Im not happy ever. Im sorry. Dose not matter how much money I may make what I do were I go or who Im with. Im always gonna be lost without her. Im never going to be right. Ill. Never sleep or eat right. I can barley function right anymore. I wake up clutching knives and cuts on me. I wake up the people I live with screaming out for her almost every time I do sleep. I never ment what I did say to her.I never ment to even get this way. I do have some mental issues I know ecpicly with rage Ive never been able to control. I wish she could forgive that. I font mean the mean things I say when I hit that point. People who really do know me know how true this is and I am grateful because they look past it. I just wish she could. I may not be rich I may be messy sometimes insensitive and stupid. But I do still very much love and am still in love with her. I could forgive anything shed ever do to me Id die for her. But Im not right inside without her there.I cant sleep I cant quit crying even.I am sorry for what I said
Posted on: Mon, 11 Nov 2013 22:00:52 +0000
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