I have been trying during my new transformation to get out of my head. As I continuously try to operate on the wave length of the vast majority of the population that I have met I realize that it is impossible for me. The way my brain over analyzes. The way I draw information from any and all sources. The only difference is that the information I have been consuming during my time as a sheep is simply lacking in vitality and intelligence. I do not mean to offend anyone that currently lives in the world of false reality shows and overly complexified(not a word) or overly simplified concepts. Based on a gloriously overwhelming dream and realization I have had today. I think my time doing so is done. I have felt so a great long time that my natural way of existing is very alien and becomes increasingly more alien as technology takes away the need for the skills of an analytical mind. There are concepts that I feel most people can not even begin to fathom that are constant obstacles in my way of living a normal life. The concept of the purpose of life is laughable. The concept of death equally so. We are all one. The limiting nature of our brains makes it incredibly easy to get caught up in the mind numbing reality we have created to distract ourselves from the bigger picture. We are destroying every bastion of what makes us human and our excuse is human nature. We have the capacity for choice. It is true that our choices are insanely limited based on the boundaries of our mind and body. However I feel as though in my limited time on earth I have found a deeper sense of contentment, oneness, love, and peace than most people. I was speaking to my co-worker on the concept of self-esteem the other day. I mentioned that I have extremely low self-esteem. This concept for most means that I am depressive or I dislike myself. I in no way mean that. I mean I know that I am perfect as all of the little human shaped cells in our universe are. Thus I see no reason to contemplate what makes me uniquely amazing. Only what makes me unique. I have goals that I have trouble sticking to because honestly I do not see the purpose of not accepting the higher level that exists in the world. When I say One love. I mean it. If you look at the chaotic nature of the cells in body eliminating each other, harming each other, and rebuilding each other. There is a possibility that it will make more sense to you. However losing yourself completely is something that I do not recommend. I have done this and now most of my time is spent trying to figure out how to exist within a society that only values the most simplistic and rudimentary parts of this existence. There are psychonauts, monks, priests, scientists, and many other spheres within our world that explore these concepts. However the majority of our species exists solely to survive. Not by choice, but by apathy. I doubt many will get through this whole post since you are probably reading this on a tiny screen while trying to accomplish at least three other tasks. Just know that Although I have given away more money than I currently have, I have lost more friends than I currently have, I have never had a credit card or taken out a debt, I have lost more love than I currently have. I am content. My life is dedicated to learning how to become less content in order to exist in a society that exploits discontentment and empowers those who confused needs with wants. When in Rome..... I Love you all Peace is the Goal, Love is the Way.
Posted on: Tue, 20 Jan 2015 22:10:21 +0000
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