I have learned and am still learning to love, honour and respect myself. I have spent most of all my life allowing people to bully, boss, trample, make fun of, tease, humiliate, control, put the fear of death and hell into me, Lord it over me, manipulate and intimidate me, use me, abuse me, terrorise me, scandalise me, set me up as an example to others, disrespect me, victimise me, dishonour me, strip me of my dignity, treat me and speak to me as less than worthless, be mean to me, make me think Im crazy, exclude me, reject me and shame me, lay huge guilt trips on me, accuse me falsely etc etc Sadly I allowed hurt people to hurt me because I was hurt. I agree, every single human is hurt to some lesser or greater degree... And so there is this vicious cycle of hurting one another. When I began to discover my value, my worth and began to love, honour and respect me without feeling any guilt or shame for that ... It became easier to set healthy boundaries for me. Not out of fear of others hurting me or rejecting me, but from a healthy point of no apologies love for Fay, recognising that I am worth loving too, I am also important and worthy of belonging. Since I am no longer a controlled victim.... my door, of my heart, is always open for the time when there can be mutual love respect and honour between myself and another. Sad to say there are some very wounded people who have become extremely crafty, aggressive, mean, nasty and are skilled con artists who insist on only having it their way at any cost. Until there can be mutual agreement for mutual respect, I will guard my heart.. Because I have discovered that what I have/we have inside, our vulnerability, is worth more than gold... So then, what good are we to our world if we just toss this priceless love to the ground to be trampled, constantly wrecked and abused by those who are seriously in need of... YES love... and very very importantly too, professional help, care and healing ... Which is also part of Loving.
Posted on: Mon, 05 Jan 2015 05:47:06 +0000
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