I havent updated in a few days as out internet has been down. Not mentioning carrier but I believe if they do not fix it until Monday, the James will be requesting a week credit on my next bill. Rough week but good week. Physically great, but you know that the enemy is constantly looking for a way to intrude. But every day, My King, has comforted and out blessed each attack the enemy has dished out. I am also believing the circumstances He allows to surface is bring us through a fire of refining and He is bringing strength and glory around us. I declare that each day I am healing more and gaining strength. Two things I accomplished this week was I went to the grocery store and walked the entire time, had beautiful talks with people I havent seen in a while and heard a story of how this cancer junk and how we are pushing on has impacted their life. How awesome that He can pull that off. It blessed and energized me more. I then was able to cook a fAmily dinner of Chicken fried steak and gravy and my family helped me but I did it. I was tired but thats okay, it felt good to be able to do that. I havent cooked a meal much less had them all under our roof at one time in I dont know how long, Angie Turner Ramoneda made a new cake recipe and sent it with Maci James. It really takes a toll on my heart strings to not be able to serve my family at full capacity, but I know God allowed this for many reasons so I will sit back and let His plan unfold. Emotions are to be expressed and I think when we try to appear strong all the time and answer every how are you with oh, I m great we are lying at times and possibly getting in the way of something God is orchestrating for ourselves or someone else. So, I try to take the high road, speak out truth all the while speaking life and NOT death words over myself or anyone else. Im not floating on a peaceful cloud with Jesus, He is where I am. On the days that are good I am easily reminded on with praise readily on my lips. The days that are hard and stink, I must have reminders to praise Him and I work on that daily. Some days I cant get to that special place just where I am right at His feet pouring it out, but then I realize or He shows me where to go and what to do. For myself, most of the time, it comes down to repentance for unforgiveness which only leads me down other paths to pity party and selfishness. But although I go through those steps, He hasnt left me or forsaken me. He is right here. Wiping my tears, hearing my talks, good and bad, waiting, patiently waiting for me to step right back in line with Him. Releasing all I have no control over anyway to Him who knows the outcome no matter what the circumstances look like, and speaking out loud that I trust Him. I love Him. I am here for a purpose and if choose to not run hard with His strength He gives me, what is the point? I want to grow old with my husband. I want to watch my children marry and meet and know my grandchildren . I know there will be hard days the good days outweigh them by far. But I want to walk in His will. My aunt Ora Mae Ora Mae Turner-Deere and uncle Doug Deere that we stayed with in Bedford are here visiting and almost all the laundry is done, lol! Randy Hooker and his wife, Norma Hooker blessed me with a vertical planter. I love it and I will fill the boxes with plants tomorrow. I have seen my sister almost every day this week. I am requesting prayer for tomorrow that I have no negative side effects from the chemo tomorrow and that I recognize the blessings no matter what, and that I do not miss an opportunity to serve him tomorrow, we are praying that after these next two cycles of chemo, my body will be ready for the transplant, accept it, and put me into remission, unless He chooses to heal me supernaturally or reveal a cure. I told my doctor at parkland they may find a cure in. 2014 and God was bigger than all of this. He is from Israel and medically does not want to give me false hope but is standing in agreement spiritually and hoping for a Miracle. I hope one day I can share all of the miracles and blessings He has graced us with through this journey and hope you can see what a mighty loving God He is all the time. Although I am showered in it and walking it out, I dont think I can fathom the depth of it all. Do not fear or worry about me, good days and bad days come, but He is still here. Victory through Jesus! New opportunities tomorrow for us all. Share Him. Start at home and work your way out. Love to all.
Posted on: Fri, 30 May 2014 06:07:35 +0000
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