I havent written for a while. Recovering from major surgery takes time, focus and a good dose of grit with a huge pitcher of grace thrown in. Amazing how quickly we can become totally self absorbed because of a circumstance. Yet to get well, one must do so. Doing ordinary things takes twice as long. Eating, getting a shower and dressed, something so ordinary, quickly stretches out into 3 hours. Im doing well. Minimal discomfort. Go to the Mall to walk. I cant rebuild my strength if I dont push myself physically. Just like life! We get as far as we are willing to endure some discomfort. Progress is measured by how long a nap I take when I return home. It was 2 hrs. Have it down to 30 minutes now. Love to come home and soak in music by Lilyband. Grateful for those whove dropped off food, sent cards, flowers or just checked on me. As of yesterday Im on my own now. My sister left almost a week ago and Mary Audrey left yesterday. I could feel that inner disquieting , would I be okay on my own? I laid in bed and in the stillness I could sense the Fathers love washing over me. God is so close. But that human touch sure helps. Im grateful for some special friendships. I dont have a lot of pain, minimal! Everything seems to be working well. Its just like living life in slow motion and recouping my brain cells, the ability to hold a thought. Enjoying Bill Johnsons stuff on Hosting The Presence. Also loving RT Kendalls book on Sensitivity To The Spirit. Feeling grateful for little things and a full heart on what others would consider relatively insignificant. Learning to put love in action isnt as difficult as it seems. Its a card that says I love you i care, a text that says Im thinking about you and praying, its a meal, something very simple. Im learning by observing what people do or dont do. Some say they are going to do something and then dont. When youre down, its amazing how much those things talk to you. I wonder does the person really care. Our words and corresponding actions are so critical to those who are struggling for whatever reason. Im learning by being in that seat. Thanks again to all of you. Not writing because all of my energy is going into recovery. Big hugs to all of you and those whove done the simple little things. It means a lot! Feel very full and grateful, my heart is full. God has been very good to me! Im sitting under an open heaven!
Posted on: Sat, 22 Nov 2014 11:15:59 +0000
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