I just heard my moms voice over the telephone straining to say I love you . The last time I spoke to my mom in person was last evening. She had heard me cough and wanted me to get rest so I could get better. Even on here death bed..she is more concerned about someone else than herself. I have not gotten much sleep and my food intake has been greatly reduced. Being with a loved one during their last days make one realize that food, sleep and other physical pleasures have nowhere near the importance as the food for the soul. This gift of spending time with mom was appreciated by my mother.....but now I realize that it was more therapeutic for me. I cried like a child when I started this trip with her...then I got mad for the pain that she was in . I was torn beyond what words can explain ...while in the process for the decision that had to be made. Now after having gone through that....I find myself in a different place. We have said all that we needed to say...Most people dont get the chance.. I have been blessed. Now , we are both at a different part of her journey. She needs to know that I am here for here....and I will continue to be every precious second. I have had many experiences in life that I have drawn from as I move and learn with my journey in life... This one made me understand a whole new type of feeling. The pain for me will soon be past and it will be over for my mom....but in its place will be peace for my mom...and comfort for me...knowing that in a persons hour of greatest need, I helped a soul and did the best that I could. Nothing matters in this life but pure love. Of all the loves in the world, non is greater than the love by a mother. Not money or possessions , or a big house or an expensive car can substitute. In the whole scheme of things...those material things will leave us. I now now in my heart that is aching that I gave to her a small part of the real gift that we all need in our lives...time, understanding and love during ones hours of greatest need. She gave it to me....a thousand times over ....her whole life.
Posted on: Fri, 28 Mar 2014 21:12:25 +0000
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