I need to write this and explain a little more in depth about myself...You guys see me as happy, and think that life seems to be a breeze for me, Its really not as simple as that, just like many people, i hide my pain to my friends and i hide my pain to people i meet... my family life is a real struggle, i dont speak to my biological dad, i fight with my stepdad constantly sticking up for myself and my siblings, i try my best to try and keep my mum happy because she suffers so hard with depression and anxiety and i cant stand watching her deal with it the way she does, Im always out to try and make people happy , whether it be with my music, the time i dedicate to friends and family, and the effort i out into things without receiving much in return, but Life is so hard for me it really is, Im not going to write about the extent of my thoughts and things, but through it all i have kept it all in and i am impossible to make cry until it comes to family, i just want a happy life, i want my family to be happy and i wish we didnt have to struggle everyday, i started doing piercings and stuff because its something i enjoy doing Im not out to cause problems or hurt anybody but the small amount of money i make from it does help and i cant stand people who set out to ruin my hopes and dreams of finally having a happy home life, Ive had it so so rough and i know there is people out there dealing with much bigger problems which is where i do not allow myself to show a negative attitude but there is so much more to me then most people think ad i just want people to think before they say and do things to bring me down anymore, Ive lost all my family other then the ones i live with they are all i have and they are breaking apart themselves and i just want to make them proud and its the people who are living the high life that are there to hate on me and others who have done nothing but reach to fulfil their hopes and dreams, my family can not afford much for me so i do take on doing things such as my piercings and djing because its what i like to do and it does help even the slightest, i cant hold in this much anymore and i just want people to know that not only myself but for a lot of others we do struggle and try to show a bright side everyday as to not affect others, please not only for me but for anybody, support people in their dreams not try and drag them down it really hurts it does and in the secret life i live behind closed doors it is so so much harder then the average home , Im not here for attention but to seek recognition and respect that people deserve better then the shit that haters set out to give , these haters , bullys, you kill the very last hope we have and yet we still try our best to stay strong I give full RESPECT to all out there that understand what Im saying personally and i give you full support everybody that has supported me i thank you so much because youve helped me stay strong and ill respect and honour you for life , thank you for those who read this and take a better view on things and for those who already did keep doing what your doing because you are great people
Posted on: Fri, 21 Mar 2014 11:19:30 +0000
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