I sit back and think about my life, and i realize i have a lot of great people around me, a loving mother and father who have been there through everything, two loving sisters and brother. I have 2 of the greatest nephews and a niece and one on the way, all in which i dearly love. All of my life i have focussed on smaller things and have never focused truly on myself and my future. I live in the now all the time and never think of the more important things. I want a family someday, i know its never to late to start but i have focused my whole life on work and worrying about finance that i never take the time to focus on my own happiness. The last 2 years i have really got the chance to spend with family and realize Im missing more in life than i thought. The love of a child, the love of family. I made a big decision 2 years ago to move back close to family, i have enjoyed being close to them. On the other hand i cant spend the time with them i desire just for the fact i have to work 2 jobs just to make it here. I left my friends who i miss dearly, these 2 years have been lonely without you guys. So i have made a decision as i have thought about it heavily, in 2015 km going to chance life and make a journey, wherever god takes me, where? I dont know. When? I dont know! Why? Im not getting any younger, and life here is not healthy. As the many who know me i like to be independent and the last 2 yrs i cannot say that Ive been dependant on others and hate that. Im 32, single, never married, working 2 mediocre jobs, with a college degree, and have nothing whatsoever to show for myself. I want a house, a family, a good paying job to support myself without the help of others. I need to get back into church, find some great positive friends, and live life the way its supposed to be. With that said, i love my family dearly and always will, but im never going to be truly happy here. I cannot continue living this way, i need a change that will boost my confidence, get me on a track to healthier living, get into the dating world (its been so long). So pray for me that i will find my journey god is leading me on. They say everyone has a purpose and im still awaiting what god has in store for me.
Posted on: Sat, 16 Aug 2014 23:47:46 +0000