I started last night really going through and letting go of stuff that I dont need and dont have space for, my amazing niece Gwen helped me pack all but two cabinets and the drawers in my kitchen and packed the things in three other stand alone cabinets as well. Tonight I decided to tape boxes to get them ready to use tomorrow to start packing my sewing room and then I thought I might as well tackle our bathroom. that and the garage are going to be the hardest to clean out, that is where the things that Kevin used everyday are,in the garage are the lasers, his tools and the mower in the Bathroom are his razer, cologne, lotion, shower gel, his hair clippers and his green brush that he has used well, before, when he still had hair to brush, All the things in that cabinet was his, well 99% of it was, what do I do with it now? Part of me feels like I need to keep the cologne and the shower gel and lotions so that I will never forget the way he smelled. But then a part of me says lady you are crazy he would tell you to toss it, it is just stuff. But when I breath in the smell of his cologne it is like he is standing right there for a brief moment, Moving is a royal pain, but this move is a completely different kind of pain. It is exciting and scary all at the same time. But leaving will be a little less heartbreaking, God sent the perfect family to me, and I mean that literally! They were planning to come to the Open House we had, but they were mistaken (or so they thought!) on the time it would end, and thought they missed it! But they wanted to still see it, so Crystal called me and asked if it was ok if they came to see it, but she would not be able to come back, would I mind being there? I said of course not, I would just sit out on the porch. They got here, I told them to take their time and look around and I sat on the porch, They came out of the house a little bit later and said We love the house, we love everything about it. I knew at that very moment that they are the ones that I had prayed for that every morning before the Open House, and I say they God brought them to me, because had they come to the Open House during the time it was scheduled, I would never have met them. God had other plans, He knew that I would need to know that the family that would make this their home would bring the same love here as Kevin and I did, and they would create new memories here just like we did. I prayed so hard that God would send the perfect family and He answered that prayer. I know He will help me create new memories in my new home just the same. This is going to be a tough one, but it is the right one, It is time for my new normal to being to create itself. I will carry some of Kevins things with me there, and keep them until he lets my heart know it is ok to let them go.
Posted on: Sat, 11 Oct 2014 01:41:03 +0000
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