I thought after these past few months, I had hit my ultimate low. But I was so wrong. I dont think Ive ever experienced this much pain and heartbreak in my life. I dont understand it, nor do I even know how to hold these excruciatingly painful feelings right now. The only thing I can hold on to is that there must be a reason for this suffering, even if I cannot see past the darkness right now. God is showing me something I need to see, but couldnt see since i was blinded and consumed by my own selfishness. For whatever reason, he is forcing me to see it this time, refusing to let me fail again. Even if the process is dark and painful, I am open ready to receive whatever it is he is calling me to do. This morning he shared this with me in my devotional, In some spheres, the shadow condition is the condition of greatest growth...There are beauties that bloom in the shade that will not bloom in the sun. So God, if it is your will for me to remain in darkness right now, so be it. I will await your beauties, and one day, I will bloom into the beauty you desire of me.
Posted on: Fri, 09 Jan 2015 16:40:51 +0000
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