I was browsing through some pictures and came across a couple of when I was about 3 or 4. Instead of thumbing through it in haste, I looked at it. I mean REALLY looked at it. I studied her face. Her eyes. Her hair. Her little hands and feet. I wanted her to sit in my lap. I wanted to take in the scent of her. I wanted to hug her and tell her why she is on this earth, and how many people would come and go that would teach her lessons. I wanted to tell her how many people would love her...how many would hurt her. And how none of that would hurt so badly that she could not rise above it. I wish I could have been there for her when she need me. I wish I could watch her playing through the window, in the dirt, in the grass..under the blue sky. I wish I could see what her face looked like while she watched it rain, and wonder what she thought when she first saw a rainbow. I want to teach her that the most important forgiveness is that which you give to yourself. It may just be the only forgiveness she will have to practice. She will make mistakes, but so will all people. I want her to learn that she matters to the people in her life. I want her to be aware that you may feel left out, or overlooked but that none of that matters compared to the people who seek her company and love her just as she is. I want to tell her that she is beneath no one. She is everything that the universe intended her to be and that as time passes she can only become better. She will love hard, hurt easily, weep when things are sad and laugh until tears flow. I want her to know that all of that is ok, and it will be part of the qualities that make up her soul. It takes time to teach ourselves all of the lessons we would have taught ourselves if only we could take that child and tell them that everything would be ok. And you know what? No matter what you have faced in the past, or what challenge you may have in the future, you will be ok. It will all play out like it is supposed to. Love yourself as much as you love others. Release yourself. Give yourself a break. It will after all be ok. All of it.
Posted on: Mon, 05 Aug 2013 00:27:54 +0000
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