I wish that I could really say how I feel right now but Im bottling it all up... Writing literally all of my thoughts down .. I wish ... I dont even know what I wish right now ... But I hate the way I feel inside and Ive isolated myself from the world the past three days after telling my dr how happy I have been and how I want to go back to school and to lower all my doses of medicines... Friday as I was telling my dr this..... Erick was hanging out with some Alicia girl at his work He nor anyone else AS ALWAYS did NOT even tell me they had plans to do this and IF we had a trusting relation SHIT! I WOULD BE FINE WITH THEM TALKING! Idk about hanging out because Id never be allowed to go hang out with a guy at work?!! Wth and idk why I would anyways?!? But he never told me she was there..... When I asked when hed seen her last... He said the last time he tattooed her weeks ago.... He said that her boyfriend IF SHE EVEN HAS ONE HONESTLY.... Stopped by last week to bs Now finally that i went through their msgs I seen the entire truth and even when I first confronted him.. He lied!! THEN he said well she did actually stop by n say hi on Friday!!! I looked at the stupid bill and the stupid time frame that was the only time on the bill that they LITERALLY didnt text each other ( 3 HOURS ) REALLY¡¡¡!!! You hid her, you hung out with her at your JOB! Yet told me NO cuz its too soon and then he lied.. N I had to find the truth out myself .... Sad life I dont wanna live And he is LUCKY I forced myself to have the most self control as possible through it all and no sleep/crying/ etc I know the truth about all of it now though.. ALMOST ;( but I honestly cant handle anymore!!
Posted on: Sat, 09 Nov 2013 01:24:14 +0000
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