If I could be very honest with you guys, id like to get something off my mind thats been on it for...well for a few years now. To those of you that think im an incredible speaker, and a scholar, and a genius, thats very sweet of you guys. But truthfully, I cant talk like I do on here in real life. Those of you who know me in real life will understand, I seem like such an odd kid, who is always talking yet never says a word. I just... I have a verbal problem. I cant for the life if me put whats on my mind into words when im talking to someone. I stutter, I mish mash my words, I forget KEY words and points to my argument and always look like I dont know what im talking about when I just truthfully cant put my thoughts to verbal words. However, I can write them exceptionally. I can spill my heart and soul onto pages like I could never do in a conversation. When im talking to someone, I am always thinking. Thinking a million miles an hour to the point where my thinking becomes clouded out by my thinking. Sounds weird huh? Let me try to explain: Someone asks me a question Ive been developing a very strong opinion on. So when I answer I try to think about what I was thinking about before. And THAT thinking blocks my actual DIRECT thinking to answer the question. And then I realize I cant pull together my opinion again like I had before and I know theyre expecting a reply so I begin to feel pressured. And then I think about the pressure and try to focus my thinking on focusing my thinking. And somewhere in the middle of that whole thinking process I say something that I dont mean to say and then I just give up. Or my brain goes completely blank and I cant think of ANYTHING to say and im silent. I suck at verbal communication. But when I write, I dont feel pressured to hurry. I can sit back and think calmly about my opinion. If I dont like something I say I can just press backspace and nobody will of heard that mess up. I have time to gather my thoughts and neatly pack them into an argument, statement or question. I cant do that on the fly. Although, aside from the verbal problem, im always thinking. I can put an argument together like *snap* in my head. Its just putting that into verbal words that becomes a challenge. But I hope I get over this as I get older. And if not, well, I guess Ill stick to writing(:
Posted on: Mon, 31 Mar 2014 04:00:22 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015