Im a cheerful person by nature. I talk to everybody and love practically every person I meet. I dance when music is playing. I laugh when I think things are funny even though my laugh is embarrassing and loud. I genuinely give a shit about people and will have a conversation with just about anybody. But that doesnt mean I dont have problems--that I dont get sad. That doesnt mean that my life is perfect. Somebody made a comment the other night, Lillian doesnt get sad. And Ive heard that enough before that its stuck with me. Im strong but ya know, sometimes I get really really bummed. Sometimes I am treated like Im not a real person with real emotions. Not intentionally I dont think. I think some just really dont see me as the type of person who lets things get to me. But it hurts. It hurts a lot. I think people look at extroverts as people whose feelings dont need to be spared because we always bounce back. Dont do that. Dont do that to me or anybody else because sometimes when Im telling a stupid animal joke or starting a thumb war, Im doing it to get rid of the weight and to avoid spilling my shit onto other people. Nobody has a perfect life. And everybodys problems are relative to their own experiences. The bottom line is, nobody knows what anybody is going through. Just be kind. Just dont deceive people. Im never going to learn my lesson and quit giving parts of me to people--whether it just be energy or friendship or love or whatever. Because people need each other on a level that goes real deep and I dont want to risk withholding it from somebody who really needs it. Im not going to quit putting a smile on even though my heart might be jumping out of my chest. I shouldnt have to. Gotta quit with this ranting stuff. But first: What do you call two ducks and a cow? Quakers and milk
Posted on: Mon, 07 Jul 2014 06:15:46 +0000
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