Im an introvert with social anxiety. The more people that are around the more craze I feel, which leads to being extremely grumpy and short. Id rather stay inside my house where I feel safe. If it wasnt for my job I would probably would (Im sure my mother would make sure I didnt). But, more and more I feel a lot of anger over the littlest things. I know Im a good person and a caring person, but this anger I feel makes me feel my good person is pushing away. I also struggle with depression and had gotten worse over the past six months. Talking with my doctor on what meds I can take while pregnant and thinking more and more about going to counseling. Im more than happy to becoming a mom, Ive wanted it for many, many years so I feel guilty for feeling so sad all the time. With the holidays coming up I always feel guilty because I am not a phone call maker, everyone should know that, ha, but I know that should change. I cant even try to describe the fear and anxiety I get about making a phone call to anyone. I freeze and panic. I just hope my family and friends understand that I think about them and love them and I am not hiding from them. I take the chicken shit road a lot because its easier on me, when really its not. Just have a lot on my mind and needed to get it out. If you read this, thank you for listening :) If not, I dont blame you lol Im not looking for advice, just an ear.. or eye..s.
Posted on: Wed, 10 Dec 2014 02:13:46 +0000
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