Im asking for prayer for myself, please. Based on past experience, and on the Amsler Grid test Im to give myself weekly, Im highly suspicious that my wet macular degeneration has returned in my left eye. My eyesight is definitely affected. I am failing the test. Im not diagnosing myself (Ill call the retina specialist at 8 am tomorrow for that piece) but I have been very anxious and agitated about this. It appears, at least, that Ill be heading down the treatment path again. (This physical problem with the eye is common. What is not common, in the words of my understanding retina specialist, is the way my mind is wired in dealing with medical issues, especially intense ones like this.) Some people who dont have my condition simply tell me dont be afraid and give advice that works for people without my condition, especially themselves, I hesitate to say Im afraid or Im scared. But to heck with it. Im afraid and Im filled with fear and anxiety. I have an awful headache. I often hear the advice turn it over to God and youll be OK. and Give it to Jesus. OK. I am doing that, not just with this, but with EVERYTHING. Ive turned it over to God, given it to Jesus, and Im still scared. God is with me. I have no doubt of this. I am experiencing the presence of God, powerfully in fact. Im experiencing this fear as a thorn in the flesh, one that God isnt removing. Since this is a prayer group, Im asking for prayer. I am weak right now. If you have my mental condition, you understand. If you dont, advice makes it worse. Prayer is more healing and helpful. Thank you.
Posted on: Sun, 21 Sep 2014 23:36:13 +0000
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