Im having a really tough time. Things are getting worse every day and I dont know how to fix it. I try to shrug it off and tell myself Im strong and its going to be okay but my heart knows the truth. The truth is my heart is broken and Im tired of the pain and worry. Im pale, thin, detached, shaky, exhausted and completely beaten down. I blame myself for things I know are not my fault. I punish myself with cutting,starvation and bulimia. I feel like this pattern is never ending and Im starting to feel another break down coming. A bad one. I wanted to die on my Birthday but I decided to hang on and give it a chance. I was dumb enough to believe it might be something special or things would improve. I honestly dont know whats keeping me here. I want to let go......I just want to let go. Im not asking for help or for sympathy.....I just need someone to know how I feel, whats in my head. Im sorry I cannot be positive its just right now.....nothing feels okay. I absolutely hate myself and my life. I simply want to die
Posted on: Thu, 13 Nov 2014 02:59:56 +0000
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