Im not posting this for pity, Im not looking for sympathy or encouragement. I just need to vent, and I need to let all you amazing people who have supported me know whats going on. My dream was within reach, it was almost a done deal. Tomorrow at 6:45 I was going to put half a security deposit down on my bakery. It is all that I have thought about and dreamt about for weeks now. Every free moment has been spent writing, and planning every single detail. Unfortunately, I left out the most important details. The ones that I didnt even know existed. Deposits when it comes to National Grid, huge insurance costs, among other things. Its just not realistic right now. And it breaks my heart. I mean, my heart literally hurts. Its hard to describe the pain you feel when giving up on your dream. Its like losing a part of yourself. And my husband has done his best to ease that pain today. Telling me he would buy me a second oven, speed racks, anything I needed to continue doing it from home. But I simply cannot continue doing that. I dont have the space for starters. I did almost 600 cupcakes in two days earlier this week and it was nearly impossible. Im still in awe of what I accomplished. The other issue is that I am constantly yelling at my kids. Telling them Im busy, Im working, I cant do this, cant do that. And its not like this goes on for a few hours. Most days I end up working from the time I get out of bed, until late into the night. I just cant continue on that way. Im proud of how far Ive come. Im so blessed when it comes to how supportive all my friends and family have been. Id rather quit on a high note than crash and burn. I will continue posting specials through the holidays, but unless something changes, I will be no longer accepting orders after January 1st. After I post this, I will be writing the email I have been dreading all day, and telling the woman who was going to rent to me that I am backing out. Just typing that brought tears to my eyes, but I know its what I have to do. I will get to work right away on returning everyones donations. Thank you for always believing in me, that alone is great success and I will never forget it. ❤️❤️❤️
Posted on: Sun, 30 Nov 2014 00:10:53 +0000
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