Im not really a local (Cairo-wise) and Ive expressed what Im going to confess (or share for that matter) with friends before, nevertheless, I still need a non-biased opinion. So, my mother passed away (I cant really quite succumb me writing this). My mother was religious, decent, beautiful, caring and protective, the wisest and best of my Aunts. But see, I hadnt been appreciating all of this while she was alive. I wasnt a bad kid, but I wasnt very good either. There was time when I made Mama angry at me, times where I didnt spend enough time with her or didnt care enough about her. I was taking Mama for granted -not in a very bad way either. The plot is, Mama died of a painful sickness, so in her last days I was kind of adjusted to the inevitable destiny but still I wasnt! I prayed hard that God would let my mother live till my graduation, which is next month, I prayed that He would let her live until she saw me married like she has always wished and whenever I pictured Mama dead, Id cry and shake the idea off my head. The real problem is that, after Mamas death, I wasnt broken down, I didnt cry as much, I was like numb, which made me feel guilty. Why cant I cry as hard as before? I miss Mama and I wish tie would go back to let me be better to her, but I cant cry. I not grieving. Why is that? Am I that bad? Didnt I love my mother much? So, if youve any opinion, regardless of its brutality, please bring it on. Thanks a lot.
Posted on: Fri, 29 Nov 2013 18:09:56 +0000
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