Im scared of the dark. I make myself see things that are not there & get scared... Makin Matt wake up to hold me. I cant ever do the speed limit. Always have to do at least 10 over. Only received 1 ticket. (100 in a 70) Im very OCD. Dont touch my stuff. I feel as if Im not good enough & feel I need to suffer pain. I smile. I take pretty pictures. I tend to my childrens every need & most wants. Inside Im dying. Begging for help. Begging to feel normal. I love life. But, This front...... that everyone knows & sees daily.... is fake. For the most part. Recovery is one long road.. but thankfully there seems to be a truck filling in the potholes right before I hit them. I love my friends. I love my family. For those who dont understand. ... dont hit me with the fake kind words. You will only push me backwards.... To a new beginning. June second 2014. Im Sara Martin & I love my life. ♡
Posted on: Mon, 02 Jun 2014 19:49:37 +0000