Im starting a new devotional series about the narrow path to Heaven, not the wide path as many believe it to be - this reading causes me to re-think everything Ive been taught and everything Ive learned over my 65 years - I have to read it and pause to think about it and then decide if I believe it - it has nothing to do with believing in Jesus, just how your beliefs and your actions will either allow you to cross Heavens Gates or not - many ( I always have to adjust from most to many) Christians seem to think that all it takes is to be reborn, believe in Jesus, follow some of the teachings from the Bible, be good in our hearts, and go to church on Sunday - Ive always questioned what I believe - I no longer go to church for a variety of reasons - one is because I have a feeling of being closed in with so many people around me, like being on an airplane with no where to go until the plane lands - another is because I look around and I see people with a different attitude on Sunday than I see in regular life Monday through Saturday - some call them hypocrites - another is that I am a traditionalist and church seems to be changing - that may be good for some people but not for structured people like me - another reason is because I am very much introverted and I have trouble being around people - I can function in that environment, Im just not comfortable and Im constantly looking for an escape - people can chastise me for my feelings and who I am - Im used to it - I love my family very much, more than anything in this world - I enjoy brief visits either here or there, but I start to get uncomfortable when Im there for too long and I tend to stay beyond my comfort threshold - Mary was my rock and my security blanket - I could go places with her even under duress because I knew she was there to bail me out - so to wind up this confessional, Im rethinking the narrow path and what that means for how I react to the news and evils of this world - I try not to hate, but I have a hard time loving so very many people in this world - I also am questioning whether or not Im cut out for eternity because I am so uncomfortable - who knows what will happen and how I will react to anything and everything - all I really know right now is that I love my Savior, and my family and friends, and that thankfully Im closer to the end of my life than the beginning
Posted on: Sat, 02 Nov 2013 16:43:42 +0000
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