In Loving Memory of Bobby....Its been 17 years and it still feels like yesterday... I lost a piece of my heart when my brother was killed on May 18th, 1997... And that hole still remains.. After his death I struggled with finding peace, I was angry... In many ways and about many things. Why was my biggest question... And I knew Id never know the answer. I couldnt come here... In 17 years Ive been able to physically visit a handful of times... Not for my lack of want... I think of him and miss him everyday.. For a decade afterwards I struggled with anxiety, and severe PTSD... Reliving this very day.. Every word, every moment ...haunted me... I dreamed of him often. I could see him and was running so fast trying to catch him, but I couldnt.. I awoke..sobbing with frustration and sadness. Until one day In my dream.. He turned around and smiled.. I knew then I was going to turn this around.. I was at peace, and I knew he was watching.. So even now I still sob on the drive and the anxiety is at a minimal.. But I know in my heart I have to come. And in my heart I know hes still smiling knowing Im here.. And saying Im OK
Posted on: Sun, 24 Aug 2014 23:40:13 +0000
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