In light of Save Yourself being released in just under 2 months, I thought I would share its back story, and the reason I wrote about the lyrics. Save Yourself as a whole is my interpretation of losing my mind and giving in to mental illness. Pretty much everyone has a story to tell and this is mine. As a child I cant remember an overly happy time in school. Struggling to fit in and fighting my inner demons while facing the dramas and obstacles that seem to come with life as a youth. Most of my friends fell into two categories; the ones that would put me down to look better to their peers, and those that would carry me when I could take no more. I met those that fell into the latter category in high school. While the depression, self doubt, anxiety, anger, hatred and feelings of abandonment still continued, I felt I had others that would give me reasons to persevere. To be honest, quite frequently I would fantasise about leaving the world, take the permanent road out of the pain I suffered and cutting myself as a means to put it aside and attempt to regain control. My friends saw some of this and in particular one of them did his best to help me through and stop it. In 2007 my friends and I lost a close friend and brother. I remember the day with absolute clarity, I can replay it as if it were a movie. I remember being at home from school that day sick. I remember wondering why mum had come home from work in the middle of the day, and wondering why she wanted to speak to me. I remember watching her struggle to find the words to tell me that one of my best friends had passed away that morning. Watching her struggle even more trying to explain to me that hed taken his own life. Being driven to school to be with my friends. Walking into a room I had never seen before and seeing all my friends in varying stages of grief and loss. Sitting on the sports oval listening to the principle informing the school about the tragedy. Going to my friends funeral later in the week and seeing him in a coffin, lying in a bed of flowers. He was only 16 years old. It saddens me beyond belief that youth in our society can feel there is no hope. That they feel no one will listen or that there is no where left to turn. I wrote the song Save Yourself as a message to anyone that feels that way or knows anyone that does. Because there is hope, there are people that will listen. There are people that give a shit about you. But if you dont speak out. If you dont tell anyone youre in need. We cant help. If you feel like talking to someone, tell your friends, tell your family, tell a professional or if you want, tell me. If you want to talk to a friend or a stranger, I will listen. I just dont want to see another kid in a coffin because they felt they had no other choice. Here are some places that may assist you get through tough times that have helped me: m.headspace.org.au beyondblue.org.au Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope this helps in any way, if nothing else but to show you youre not alone, Im just like you.
Posted on: Sun, 24 Aug 2014 23:58:58 +0000
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