In the last two years I have faced a lot of loss and perhaps there are people out there who also have gone through similar loss. Just to give you an idea i will list most of them. It first started with the loss of my best friend to cancer. Although we lived far apart we never stopped talking and were always there for each other to encourage one another and laugh and joke until the end. As i went through this I was trying to keep a marriage together that was falling apart. I was working four twelve hour shifts from 6pm to 6am and was sleep deprived and always tired but I knew I needed this job to give me some sort of solid ground to cling to. The marriage continued to spiral downwards when I was hit with the news my mother had cancer and was not here for long. Within six weeks she was dead. Mom and I were very close and I always made a point of seeing her once or twice a week. Meanwhile the marriage was holding on by a thread, the children could sense it and tension ruled our home. Never the less I kept on working and never missed a beat. Within six month of mom dying the marriage was over. Twenty six years together and twenty as husband and wife. Still I never missed a moments work . I fought depression and knew I could not fall apart the children needed me to be strong. Next my favorite aunt was diagnosed with cancer and died within a month. I went to visit her a few times with Noah who always called her granny. My dog Mico became cancer ridden , my companion of fourteen years. I wrapped him up in his blanket and put him to rest. I never missed a moments work and just kept driving forwards. I always told my kids we would be ok. Then I was hit with the news my job was being terminated and that I had six weeks of employment left to which I fell apart when I heard the news. I always told my kids at least dad still has a job. A few days ago I lost my uncle a dear friend and inspiration in my life to cancer. I have been through the most difficult time of my life and I know others out there face even more. Through it all I have had friends encourage me for which I am so thankful to have had. And when I had nothing left to give and was broken beyond repair my dear friend and now partner Shirley White gives me hope that there can be good times to have. We have shared hardships and great times together through all of this mess which was my life. She encourages me and uplifts me when I have so little to give in return. Perhaps for all of us who face hardships there is a hope that someone out there can make a difference in your life no matter how screwed up it is. Don,t give up. Perhaps for you someone will make a difference in your life too.
Posted on: Wed, 28 Aug 2013 12:44:35 +0000
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