Insecurities. The past few weeks Ive been feeling so INADEQUATE. I feel like I dont measure up compared to other women. I look at all the pretty housewives and soccer moms at my gym...I see them in their cute hot pink tank tops with matching hot pink shoe laces...I see them driving their freshly detailed BMWs with their hair looking immaculate and confidence soaring. I see them meeting up with their girlfriends, who are also cute little stay-at-home moms, and watch them as they train together and talk about their kids soccer game this past weekend, or the new pair of shoes they bought at the mall, etc. I think to myself well damn...maybe I should be more like THEM. While they have immaculately washed and waxed cars, I have dog hair embedded in my backseat and a Salt Life decal and paw print stickers on my back windshield. While they have cute color coordinated workout attire with moisture wicking material, I wear old sweats I bought at the Salvation Army with a papertowel shoved inbetween my boobs to absorb sweat. While they have freshly manicured nailes, I have chipped off Sally Beauty Supply nail polish I applied at home in under 30 seconds. While their skin looks fresh and youthful from their facials, microdermabrasian and botox, I have fresh breakouts and acne scaring. I just feel DIFFERENT. And although I love being different, there are times I feel like I should fit in more. The truth is, I will never be one of those perfectly put together and pretty women. I never get manis and pedis because I cant sit still for that long and Id rather spend that money on something else. I buy my gym clothes at thrift stores because they are just going to get ruined from sweat anyway. I LIKE having dog hair in my backseat because Im reminded of my family at home. And if I go to the mall and go shopping...I dont really give a sh*t about talking about the pair of shoes I just bought - Id rather talk about the NFL draft or last nights UFC fight. Oh and also, we dont want to have children and wont be attending any kids birthday parties or soccer games. I think we all find ourselves, at times, longing or wishing for what we dont have. Im not going to deny that at times I compare myself to others, even if only for a split second, and start to feel inadequate. But upon doing so...upon making that comparison...I eventually end up right back where I started... being perfectly happy and PROUD of the woman I am. Im a free spirit, I march to the beat of my own drummer, and Im full of quirks and flaws. Thankfully, I have a husband, two dogs, and an amazing family and group of friends...who love me JUST THE WAY I AM. So if you are ever feeling down, or insecure, or inadequate...just remember that it happens to ALL of us. Just keep holding your head high, remember whats important to you, and keep being your own kind of beautiful :)
Posted on: Mon, 19 May 2014 16:02:35 +0000
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