Insert 75 I woke up the next day and Titus was not next to me. The first thing that came to my mind was that I had been dreaming all along. I got up and checked the bathroom. It was empty, I ran downstairs and checked the whole house and he wasnt there by now I was crying. I sat in the middle of the foyer and cried. How could I have been dreaming? I felt a tap on my shoulder and I jumped and turned. Me: babe? Sandy: its me. Whats wrong? Me: I had this dream that Titus was back and we all had christmas lunch together and I wake up this morning hes not there. It felt so real sisi. She held me up and let me sob in her arms. Her: it was not a dream mntase. Hes outside playing basket ball with Kimmy. Me: really? I jumped and ran outside to the court and he was really there. I watched him play with his daughter. He didnt move as he used to now as though he was in some kind of pain. He looked around and saw me. Him: hey, come play with us. I went over to them. Me: I thought it was a dream. Him: not by a long shot kid. Im here to stay. Kissed him and I joined their game. Later that day the Kebembe family came. I was really not in the best of moods, seeing them really disgusted me. I sat in my bedroom, while they were down stairs. Sandy came to me. Her: mntase awuzoyobaphekela or something? Me: andingomfazi wabo mntase. Eyam indoda ityile. Ihluti. Bona bandibonisa into endiyiyo kubo. Ewe ndibaxolele kodwa hay mntase andingomfazi wabo. Sandy went back down to host them and I couldnt even care less. Later Ted and his mom came up to check on me. Ted: knock, can we come in? Me: yes. Tis ma: hey baby. Im sorry about everything. Me: its ok ma. Tis back and it doesnt matter now. I know that him, the kids and my family are the only family I got. Ted: but we are also your family Andy. Me: thats what I thought until u showed me where I really stand with u. I will never be able to forget what u wanted to do. Had I kept quiet and not stand up for myself, I wouldnt have a husband or kids. Only because u people didnt like me as u pretended to. Well because Im still married to Titus and u are his family, that is the only reason u are here today. So please allow me to be. Im not even angry that u wanted to kill your son but I am angry that u wanted to take my own children! How dare u? But now I will not say anything more. If u could excuse me, have to go check on my kids. I got up and left them standing there, I called for the kids. Me: Mia? Kimmy? They were nowhere upstairs instead there was Tom. Me: baby where are your sisters and brothers? Thom: dunno Ted jnr: peeka boo Titus jnr came behind me and held my leg and tickled it, they all laughed. Gosh they were already so naughty. I chased them down the stairs, through the foyer into the play room. We spent some time playing till I heard a knock on the door. Me: yes? Mark walked in. Him: Andy, my father and uncle would like to see u in the living room. Me: k. I went on and played with the boys and soon as he walked out I followed. Got into the living room and the whole family was sitting down. I stood by the door and looked at em. Sandy and Titus were also sitting! Err was this some kind of ambush? I swallowed hard and breathed. Sandy: sisi zohlala apha ecakwam. Me: no ndiright apha. I grabbed a chair and I looked at Titus, who was also looking at me. I sat right by the door. Everyone kept silent for some time and just stared at me. I needed Khanya. I needed backup. Me: sooo? Patrick: girly we wanted to talk to u. We havent seen u since we got here, we havent even had tea. Me: u wanted to talk to me about tea? Cyril: well where have u been? Me: Titus? Whats going on? Titus: they wanted to talk to u about what happened when I was in hospital. Dad I believe u have something to say to Andy. Cyril: uhm yea He looked away and fixed his voice. Cyril: we are sorry. Im sorry. Patrick: yes we were wrong. Judy: we never meant to hurt u. Ted: if I could go back, Id give u support instead of telling u what to do. Mark: Im truly sorry Andy. Me: ok. Judy: are we ok now? Me: ok. Patrick: is that all u can say? Me: with all respect sir what do u want me to say? That no its fine I forgive u? Well I do forgive u but I cant let go, the same way I couldnt let go of my husband until he woke up. Ok, Cyril u are sorry? I accept, it was u who told me family sticks together because it was beneficial for u right? The first chance u got u threw me out of ur family. I would really accept ur apology but really I dont know whats it for. Is it for saying my husband was no more and u wont go see him? Or perhaps when u told my mom to get out of my house? No how about when u wanted to take my kids? Better yet when u wanted to kill me? So what are u exactly sorry for? Patrick, as for u sir I wont even humor u by listening to anything u have to say. U didnt like me the day u went to pay lobola and I didnt expect u to like me when Titus was half dead. U were not wrong, u were just u. Judy and Ted Ive already spoken to u. Im really hurt because of what u did. Ma, do u remember when I told u I was leaving Titus? Her: yes baby. Me: what did u say? Did u like me at that time because u wanted me to rid u of the burden? U told me to go fetch my daughter from school and go home to my husband. And then u turn around and tell me u are taking my children. I dont know if its just me or what but thats just really twisted. Mark dear I told u my love for Titus wasnt past tense. I guess Im not 26 anymore and I have my husband back. Well Ted, I told u that every time I looked at u I saw Titus till the day u wanted to kill him. What makes me angry at u and Cyril the most is that it was your damn fault that Titus got shot at. It was ur fault that he ended up in that hospital bed and then u turn around and tell me whats good for me? Ok I heard u all. Im not angry at u for wanting to kill ur son. I suppose u loved him more than I do hence taking the easy way out. Ive only known him for 4years now right? I only married him for his money, right Patrick? Im just a gold digging tramp right Cyril? Im not angry at all that u wanted to kill him. But for undermining me in my own home, for insulting me and my family a number of times Cyril, for telling me how unfit of a mother I have been. For wanting to take my kids away from me. For hating me so much that u wanted to kill my husband and take my kids away. That disgusts me. Thats what makes me stay upstairs while u play happy family in my house! U should be thanking me that today u are even able to talk to this son of urz. The one who was no more just a year ago. Im sorry for the disrespect. But I would like to keep my distance from all of u, every time I encounter with u, I turn out like this and I dont wanna make a habit of it. Excuse me. I walked out and stood by the door. I needed to breathe and I heard voices. Cyril: Ive tried but theres just no getting through to that girl. Patrick: Ive always known shes just some little disrespectful girl. Titus: thats enough!!! That girl! U see that one who just walked out this door? That is my wife and her name is Andiswa! U call her names again, we will be arranging a funeral for u. And that goes to all of u. Im sick of this nonsense. She was in pain and needed a family and u turned your backs on her. Ted I trusted u would be the one who would take care of my family when Im gone but u couldnt even stand up for Andy when she needed u the most. Im really disappointed in u. Mark I wont even talk to u. U came into my house, with no job, no car, no education because ur father didnt care. U said u would stay a few weeks till u get back on ur feet. Who helped u get there? U ever told ur dad that it wasnt me who was paying for your schooling? It wasnt me who gave u a car? It wasnt even me who let u in and gave u a home. And then when she is alone, u were the first person to leave her? U should have known better, u and Ted know her better than any of them. Mom how could u? Right now I wont lie, Im angry at all of u. I think its best u all stay away till things cool off. I will not stand my wife being disrespected anymore. Anyway when a man marries, his family is his wife and children. I have that now. Please give us time to be. Thats when I ran up to my room. I didnt hear anymore. For the first time I heard Titus really stand up for me. He normally would tell them to stop but today he really manned up. A few minutes later he came into the bedroom. I could see he was angry. Him: babe do me a favor? Me: ok? Him: leave dads business alone. I understand why u sometimes snoop and all but from today on just leave all of them alone. U told them how u felt and trust me they wont ever bother u, please keep ur nose out of Cyrils business. I know it was his deal gone wrong that I ended up in that hospital but from now on its none of our business. Ur family is me and the kids and mine is u. They will not come to the house any longer and if they happen to be in town like now, they will either stay with Ted or a hotel. They will just pass by for a visit. No more sleeping here. Im done talking, Im done fighting with u because of them and Im done fighting with them for u. Me: ok. Him: I love u baby and I am all the family u need. He had a point there. I was also done with the Kebembes shame. We then changed for bed and I updated him on his businesses and all. After that we slept. December soon rolled over. My mom came to see Titus with Khanya. Khanya joked about all the drama that went down. They went back home. January, Lisakhanya turned 21 and she had a big 21st birthday that I missed. Told her to visit for her june holidays and she can feel our summer, she was so excited. We went back to work, my husband was a whole lot better. Andrew was so happy that his best bud had come back, now he had a best man for the wedding. We had Mias 7th birthday, she was getting bigger by the day. She was told to make a wish. Her: I wish my dad and mom dont sleep in the hospital again for a long time. Sandy: and your mom? Her: yes. She was there for 3weeks some years back and my dad for over a year. I dont want them to leave us again. Titus: never again baby. Me: not till u are older with ur own children. Her: u promise? Me: yep I promise. .... Andisanikhumbuli. A mini something just to break the silence. Enjoy church.. Forgive any errors, typed in some other state nje. :)
Posted on: Sun, 07 Dec 2014 06:06:12 +0000