It is a Good Friday indeed! I gave up resentment, guilt and anger for Lent. I havent been perfect, but Im forgiven. Thank you Lord. I believe He stayed on that cross so that I could live this life renewed and inspired. The parallel in my dying experience with cancer and chemo is not a coincidence. Its reaffirmed my faith. From the very beginning of the diagnosis, I surrendered it to God! For the first time in my life, I did not try to control my circumstances. I did not write out a plan. I did not think my way through the problem, trying to solve it like I had done in the past. That part of me died. I am reborn with the comfort of the Holy Spirit! God is grand for sure! Hallelujah! I used to allow Satan to distract me with resentment, guilt ,anger, doubt and insecurity. He still tries. But now that Ive gone through cancer,I dont play his game anymore. At first, it was hard. Id catch myself thinking about something I did wrong or something someone did wrong to me. Id play that broken record over and over again. BUT GOD! When Id be honest with myself, Id ask for forgiveness. Id shout ALL the many blessings in my life, Id shout out loud the name of Jesus and tell Satan to kiss my natural black you know what! Id praise Jesus for enduring the pain and acknowledge that what I felt was not even a portion of the burden He carried for me. To live in this comfort us amazing! It gets better the more you trust and listen. You have to stop letting Satan push your buttons. I know somebody has felt the pain Ive felt and youve endured! Isnt that part of the lesson of Easter? Isnt that why we cleanse ourselves for Lent? This is the most growth Ive ever experienced in my life. Its a different maturity because its not measured by what my eyes can see. A major flaw of mine is vanity. Gods schooling me on that. This growth is about my heart. My heart is beautiful and made so intricately. Researchers says the average heart thumps 100,000 times a day! It pumps 2,000 gallons of blood through the body! Its where all my energy to live this grand life is generated. Its where the creator speaks to me. It is the source of my strength. It is my soul! Giving up the stress of resentment and its counterparts has done my heart good and even when I fail, I live in gratitude! When I was a child, I never understood why they called it Good Friday since Jesus was crucified. Now I understand. We all gotta die a little to be born again. This Sunday when I rise, Im shouting hallelujah like never before! Happy resurrection! #ilovetheLord!
Posted on: Fri, 18 Apr 2014 12:29:02 +0000
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