It was just one year ago today that I almost lost my best friend and love of my life. She wrote this and sent to me in and email so I thought it best to share with all of you. Debbie (CrazyGrandma) wrote: As this day approached, I can honestly say my heart didn’t know what to feel. There was apprehension, fear, hope, love, gratefulness and need. I am sure there are others, but at the moment that is all I can come up with. It is hard to believe that it has been a year since that awful day last July. I for one don’t have much memory about those days, I have the scars and the stories that people tell me, but I have either blocked it out or the Lord doesn’t want me to remember them. Probably some of both. I do remember that I was close to the other side as most of the days all I can remember is the brightess ceiling or sky I have ever seen. For all the pain that I caused so many emotionally I am sorry. I know that the prayers from so many, the willing of my family and God’s decision he wasn’t ready for me yet is what got me thru it to today. I for one am so glad I made it. To have the ability of another year to watch everyone around me grow, especially those grandchildren of mine. The joy they all bring into my life has many times this year gotten me thru. Just a simple smile with the “I love you, Crazy Grandma” does so much. To this day my great doctor, Dr. Ronn, calls me his miracle patient. He says there is no way I should have made it and yet I am walking and doing things they said I wouldn’t be able to. I do need to have my oxygen with me, but a little inconvenience when I think about it. It took me almost a full year to figure that one out and that I needed to stop feeling sorry for myself and start looking at what I had. I could have lost it all on this day, but I didn’t, I or we chose life instead and I have decided to live to its fullest. I do need to thank a few persons personally, as without them during this long year I would not have been able to cope and survive. My dearest husband and one of my best friends, Tom, I will never be able to repay you for what you have given up for me this year, but do know that I appreciate everything from my heart. To my daughters and also my best friends, Tanya, Tammy and Tara you guys are the best. Just being able to text you each night and morning was a major accomplishment for me and when I receive that answer it makes my heart miss a beat. You three make my heart complete. My sister, who never left my side unless she was pryed away, I love you with all my heart. My brother in law, Pat who has shared my sister with me, thank you. To my son in laws for allowing me to have my daughters close to me when I needed them and still do. Billy Hobbs for coming to the hospital and praying for me and with me and continues to this day, Jennifer and Chad, the Gokool and Wahl Family who I am sure scared the hospital security when you all came in. I know that your extended family is large and the prayers probably flooded heavens doors, my Uncle Sonny, Barb and Cindy, I love you, I know you are always there for me. My Aunt Irene who came in from California, and her daughter Lisa. My other Aunts Mary and and Sue, thank you, Eileen Martan, who has stayed in our lifes thru everything and continues to be there, you mean a lot to us, Doug my nephew for always remembering me, my neighbors who helped take care of the house, dog and even Tom, thank you. My FB friends even though I don’t have a FB account and my email friends, thank you and for all of you that I may have forgotten, I am sorry, but know you are thanked and hold a place in my heart. And most of all again to my fabulous husband, Tom, my three precious daughters and those precious grandchildren of mine, Nathan, Darek, Sammi, Kyle, Trevor, Bryce and Cole. You are all so special to me and hold a special place in my heart. Enough is enough, I am just glad that this year has passed and “we” beat the odds….. Love you all
Posted on: Sat, 13 Jul 2013 12:54:34 +0000
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