Its a great feeling knowing I dont have to hide ANYTHING today. When Heather gets in the car I dont have a guilty conscious of oh snap shes gonna figure out that Im high or see or smell things or have to hide blunt wraps or worry about what she grabs of mine because Im too high to remember where I hid things. Ya know people always gonna run their mouth saying oh I seen him with him or I seen his car there or here. You people have the right to say whatever you want to say. But I can guarantee you that you wont see me with a blunt or joint hanging out my mouth driving down the road or see me at wal mart standing at the pharmacy waiting for u know what. Today is honestly 37 days sober without a track mark on me a scent of weed smell or most of all the guilty conscious hanging on my shoulder of the 100% that I can be. I know I got supporters and even more doubting me but anytime you wanna second guess me feel free to say yo take a piss in this cup for me. Any time any place with whoever because like I said 37 days today and thats not one slight bit of dishonesty. You wanna call my bluff come on over and bring a screen with Ya. I dont have to defend myself because their isnt a lie I have to tell. That was the hardest thing for me in getting sober. Is being flat out honest. They told me when I walked in those doors at rehab that 8% of people have overcame your drug of choice. The confident arrogance in me just said to myself ha well they apparently dont no me. And today I recap and look back at life and understand how bad life really was for me. Its not even the drug that was it. It was the lifestyle and dishonesty I brought to the table. In saying all this bottom line is I stay sober for me. Not for anyone else because if I dont stay sober for me no one else is gonna be able to enjoy me as a real person. To all you doubters/haters. I know you wish you had what I have and I dont blame you because if I didnt have what I did I would feel the same way but I created what I have and who Ive become that shot just dont happened overnight. Its called work. Hard work. God kept me on this earth because Im suppose to stay sober because if I didnt I promise you I would be 6ft under. Im 8% of what every doctor every physicist physician everyone told me I couldnt do. Im here and doing it. Dont believe me? Just watch me. Enjoy the show
Posted on: Fri, 03 Oct 2014 22:08:54 +0000
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