Its amazing how your emotions can literally change with the wind. One moment Im speed walking at Railroad Park for exercise with the wind blowing through my hair and Chakas. Im all smiles, taking in natures pain pills and thinking how Im progressing and finding my way to happy again by chasing my dreams. The next wind blows and with the passing of that wind so does the woman who was the lead detective on my case. She carelessly strolls past me in her uniform without knowing me from a field mouse. In that instant I had a rush of emotions and felt as small as a field mouse. I realized I was only a case number to her and she had no idea how my life and been turned upside down and rearranged by her careless and shabby police work. I was so over come with emotions I did not know whether to stop and pull her to the side, or run and cry due the overwhelming surprise. I decided to break down and before I could, it was like another wind blew and I thought about how far Id come without her help or any help from the BPD. Its ironic that this last week I have been trying hard to find ways to fill this June with activity in order to keep my mind occupied. I always get antsy around mid May because I am afraid of what emotions June will bring. Well, from the way the wind blew today, I think Im gonna fair well. Lol people are always telling me I need to sit down somewhere and be still because Im moving too fast or doing too much. I think Im doing just what I need to survive. With all that said, this goes out to all the people whove had to fight to survive, fight stay sane, or fight to find happy. Dont stop moving! The battle wont win its self !
Posted on: Sun, 18 May 2014 23:55:06 +0000
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