Its funny how the mind can seem so childish at times. Although it may not seem like it, my mind is a little more advanced than my age. I tend to think more logically than most other teenagers. I just rarely show it around friends. So you would think I would think logically about high school. The truth is, Ive had people come in and out of my life so much that I find it difficult to trust really anyone completely. So, if I do trust you, youre like family. So you could imagine my dismay when my closest friends are nearing the end of their stay in my life. Im talking about my friends in their senior year. Most of my close friends are much older and I realize people loose touch after high school, especially when theyre two years apart. For once, I refused to think logically. I thought of course Im gonna stay close friends with my senior friends, theyre like my brothers! In the back of my mind I knew, there is no way any of my older friends will want to talk to me after they graduate. Theyre gonna lead their own lives and never have me cross their mind ever again. But, Ill think about them everyday, wishing, hoping they still think of me. Hoping theres something about me that they will never forget. But something tells me thats not how that works. Ive spent hours crying over this, feeling so empty knowing that I wont have my teddy bears to keep me safe anymore. Sometimes I wish I didnt have to think like this, I wish I could just have friends my age and have no worries. But I think very far into the worst situations, sit and cry to myself, and build my wall higher.
Posted on: Sat, 29 Mar 2014 14:35:32 +0000
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