Its three weeks since leaving home into two extremes. One cold Nairobi and another hot Lodwar. As a matter of fact my thermometer decides its doing a good job by indicating that temperatures were 288 degrees celsius. To be honest I believed it, and was amazed that i was alive at such temperatures only to be reminded that water boils at 100 degrees. But the lows sometimes come in although I try not to let them sink in. I find that I miss people at home quite much. Sometimes I am caught in a lonely place especially where your job dictates you are only close enough to people to maintain good enough distance. You find yourself bottled up with issues- at work, personal life and there is no where to empty. Thats when I realized how I miss my friend Jenny. Was trying to reach her but was not able to only until wednesday. We got talking on phone. I told her I miss her and the boys (little Samuel and Peter). She was glad that I had called. She appreciated how much I love them. Then I was talking and listening to her under the fierce sun but whilst crying. I realized that for the people you love you can bear all brutality to know theyre well, talk to them, laugh and cry. Anyhow Jenny informed me she had been sick for just about the time I was away. Then I told her I was praying for her to have a girl. So we got laughing and teasing. You know they say absence makes the heart grow fonder. I have been thinking very deeply about my family, friends, even cat. And some of my deepest fears have turned out raw and ripe. Today I got up with the fear of losing one very important relationship. I found myself second guessing my move to Kenya. Was it the right time, may be I should have stayed, may be it was the wrong move, may be, may be, may be. While I was at it again this morning....I was reminded of a verse in 2 Timothy 1:12. It says; For this reason I also suffer these things; nevertheless I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that day. So this morning I told God ; am committing all these people I care about to you. You will keep them until that day. Thats the best I can do; commit them to you. So I dont know what youre dealing with. But lets try this together. COMMIT TO HIM TO KEEP.
Posted on: Sat, 26 Jul 2014 06:40:22 +0000
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