It’s that moment when the sun is beginning to turn in for the day allowing the stars to wake up and dance across the night sky. I close my eyes and slowly slip into the hiding place I retreat to each weekend, right about this time. There is laughter dancing off the bubble bath and the happiness bursts into tiny bubbles as I sit by the tub watching you both play. Tonight I will be the dinosaur who has just been found by the trucks digging and exploring the plains of Africa. The water splashes up on my hands and arms and the warmth radiates through my soul. There are songs which I am not sure where you both learned them, but with shampoo bottles as your microphones you serenade me as I gently wash the suds from your hair. Then it is time to jump into fluffy towels rolled up as my little Italian burritos. I gently laugh as I watch both of you try to run into your rooms while staying in the cocoons of warmth. I trade your towels for your nighttime armor; will you choose a superhero or a comic book legend to drift off into slumber in? The three of us snuggle into the fire bed with each of your tiny hands pushing the lights on above us. It’s time to let my little men drift off to imaginary places where we will search for hidden treasures, we will fight the dragon to save the princess, or I will hide behind the pages of a story hoping you hear that your mommy loves you no matter where your path takes your or how many years will pass from this moment. I gently wrap my arms around each of you as I softly begin to sing the same lullaby that you have heard every night since before you were born: baby mine don’t you cry baby mine dry your eyes rest your head close to my heart… never to part baby of mine And as I listen to the sweet softness in your breathing change to drifting off into our dreams, I softly whisper the same prayer: Lord, I know that you have given them to me And I ask that tonight as they battle the dragon or save the princess Will you protect them while they sleep And let them awake the beautiful little men that make my heart beat? When it’s time to slip out of the bed, I quietly tiptoe out of your room taking one last look at your beautiful faces as you sleep. I breathe in the warmth of your souls and gently blow one last kiss for each of you to hold in your hearts. And then I carefully close the door, hoping to keep my love surrounding you both keeping you safe as you grow. As I allow myself to slowly open my eyes I remember the nights when this was our reality. I let the warmth of those memories surround my empty bed. I notice that the night is still and you are not here. I will not tuck you both in tonight but will count down the moments until you are back in my arms again. I will let my heart feel those last kisses you left me with as I dropped you off to your dad. I feel the warm moist kiss on my hand as you gently filled up the pocket-sized containers in my soul that can only be filled by each of you. They dance in my heart while you are away like little fireflies dancing across a summer night. I will do this each weekend that I have to share you, and hope that one day you will understand that your mommy does this each week because she loves you so much. So as you dream in a bed far away from mine, remember that my love softly whispers the words: I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, As long as I’m living… My babies you will be
Posted on: Sun, 30 Mar 2014 02:07:54 +0000
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