Ive been happy, gregarious, generous, only wishing to make someone laugh. I have been the flip side of that joyous little bi-polar coin as well...angry, withdrawn, selfish, hiding and needing to be alone. The first road is immeasurably more pleasant than the low-road, guaranteed. Id like to abolish the low-road, and Im sure I could get a petition full of signatures in about an hour, only they dont legislate emotion the way they attempt to legislate morality. I intensely dislike this proclivity to dive into a trench of bleakness and depression in spite of attempts toward positive thought. This chemical tendency, this emotional variance tests my limits, my tenacity. How easy to step away, to give in to madness in all its wild form. The allure of escape is potent, undeniably desirable. To let go, to hover within, to be untouched...simply magnetic. A cocoon of silence and peace. I forget to care. Remembering is hard. I get tired. Then, morning, and softly...Hi Daddy! Recharge and relief! Her simple joy like solar power, free energy, neutrinos before light! Finding my smile again, moving forward, forgetting pain. Im Alive!
Posted on: Mon, 21 Jul 2014 04:51:13 +0000